Apparently Uneffected

2009-10-15T02:55:00.000+08:00

NO LONGER HERE.

i'm now blogging at:

www.davinadave.tumblr.com

2009-06-16T22:46:00.000+08:00

i think im going to start blogging again, for real.

i think i wanna start fresh and get a new URL. we shall see..

2009-05-25T22:16:00.001+08:00

work work work.

i hate working.

but i love earning money, i tell you if i could only claim my over time during my internship,
i'd be a freaking millionaire. okay, stop,
that was exaggeration.

all i do during weekdays is, wake up, work, come back and sleep right away. really.

haish. i need some life dude.
oh shit, i'm not earning anything, i have one major trouble, i can't curb my lust for shopping.
online shopping that is.

HELP.

2009-05-18T00:26:00.002+08:00

ive never had such bright colours on my head,
yeah, i mean my hair.

mama decided to treat me today, all in a sudden i may say,
color, and highlight.

wow.
now i look different i should say.
mama was worried, she liked it, yet scared for me, why ?
cause its brighter than my usual style.

tomorrow is my big day.

internship is scaring the shit out of me.

dammit. wish me luck.

2009-05-16T22:32:00.002+08:00

the semester's over. wow, that was fast. really.
in a glimpse everything flew so fast.

today me woke up and finally did something beneficial. hehe, it has been ages since the last time
i 'pampered' my body, oh no, not spa, this is a love-hate relationship, work out, yes.
ive been so lethargic, living my life, being an architecture student does not help out that much.
i know i know i am giving too many excuses, hehe, that's not a reason to abandon my body huh?

went to Bukit Cerakah. ahhahahah the last time i went there was in form four was it? there was this camp trip, i remember having loads of fun, reminiscing how my tent was ransacked by monkeyysssssssssssssss. haiyo, they took all our food. erghh, and one funny scene where we found one of our bras hanging on one of the branches. hahhhaahhahahahahahahahahhaha.

yeah, back to the present, we rented out bicycles, can you imagine me cycling more than 6 kilometres??????????????????????????????? pain in the ass i tell you. very pancit. i was the last one, it hit me how far have i 'deteriorated' since high school, i was a sport's person i tell you,
what happenned?? so pathetic.

my new resolution, yeah i think its not too late huh, i plan to stay fit back again. lol, wish me luck.

did i mention im starting my internship this monday? its nerve wrecking honestly, to actually work? i feel sooooooooooooooooo intimidated, really. especially to work in a big firm?
ill be working at Veritas, opposite KLCC, next to Avenue K, how 'strategic' is that?

Damn, i have to wake up early for the nest 6 weeks just for work.

blerghhhhhh

2009-05-01T18:41:00.002+08:00

it has not been a good week to me in a nutshell.

too many things are happening, its great however that i have only two more papers to go.
History of Architecture and Architectural Science. history is scaring me the least to say,
i have not much clue on it, despite the fact i have all the notes. reading these words, even meticulously, would only drive me insane.

i am at home the whole day trying to stuck my head with some ancient architecture propaganda.
lol. one topic actually caught my attention; Archigram. its this anti-architecture movement.,
how they introduce avant-garde architectural group; inspired by technologies.

imagine having plug - in city, a massive mega structure with no actual buildings; just framework where cells, capsules and standardized components can be fitted in. yeah, imagine star trek.

however, those are all on papers.

real influence of Archigram that you can see in today's architecture;
is the Pompidou Centre.

yeah ive polluted my mind in the good way with all these knowledgeable 'gibberish'.

later days.

2009-04-11T01:48:00.002+08:00

did i mention im on -taking-my - own - sweet - time mission?

thats simply because my submission date has been postponed.
well well well,
when will i ever stop procrastinating? sigh.

its due this monday, i can say im on track, how ever its better to have a goodnight sleep the night before your submission, ive never actually had any experience of actually sleeping one day prior to final crit day! iskhh.

i'm going to continue to do my work now, elevation and section, then 3 D, then , compose,
then , color?

hish, i haven't planned my presentation!!! adoy.

gotta go, cant wait to end. then im free as a bird. hooray. ;D

2009-04-03T23:42:00.002+08:00

craving for fondue lah.

im at home now, pj that is. my baby neo was upset with me, he literally snapped out on me,
didnt even give me the chance to actually start and move the car.
yeah, i bet he must be really terasa.
im sorry baby. tomorrow going to the mechanic to ensure everything is okay.

stucked in front of the lappy now, trying to construct a three D drawing of my food market building with Revit, yeah, i think i can handle geometrical, simple cut design piece of cake,
however, being a beginner, to deal with an organic form, its literally suicuide. babi lah.

thank god, submission's not this monday, i was going crazy like nobody's business when i found out yesterday rupa rupa dah postpone sejak last monday. how come i didnt know?
whatever it is, THANK GOD.

i need to excell on this one. REALLY.

topshop student's lock in will be happening next week. JANGAN PERGI.
cause nanti it'll be too crowded. ahahahahahhahah.

i wish i had a magic card. HAHAHAHA.
yeah whoever have watched Confessions of a Shopaholic would know what the hell im talking about. great movie. go watch.

toodloo. im on a death mission now. till next monday. no , not this monday moron. i have a week to become a true hero assasin. FUCK you.

goodnight.

2009-03-31T15:27:00.000+08:00

something's missing in me.

sigh.

2009-03-26T04:51:00.002+08:00

15 steps.
15 steps to what exactly?

someone broke my beloved flower hairclip :( the one i bought in Bali. ;-(

this will be a very random post.
how's everyone doing these days?
i wish for your well being.
i miss my freedom, not that i don't have it now, but the liberty of being outside out the box is rather limited.

its 5 minutes to 5 am, i have design tomorrow, but im not occupied with any thing :(
i wanna go shopping, jom ?
i got myself a pair of AX jeans some time ago. :)))))))))))
thanks to Apai for the extra discount.

did you know Earth Hour is happening real soon ?
are you guys up for it? or are we just bunch of bloody ignorants.
Adam sent us this private message on facebook.
invitation to have a picnic during earth hour. sounds cool.

venue : helipad.

hooooray, under the skylight i shall spend my time with the best company.

i want to come out and play.

p/s: should i go home?

2009-03-22T04:00:00.000+08:00

so, of course, you were supposed to call me tonight
you were supposed to call me tonight
we would have gone to the cinema
and, after, to the restaurant, the one you like in your street

we would have slept together, have a nice breakfast together
and then a walk in a park together, how beautiful is there!
you would have said "i love you" in the cutest place on earth
where some lullabies are dancing with the fairies

i would have waited like a week or two
but you never tried to reach me
no, you never called me back
you were dating that bleach-blonde girl
if i find her, i swear, i swear...

i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future, she broke my dream
i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future when she took you away

i would have met your friends, we would have had a drink or two
they would have liked me, 'cause sometimes i'm funny
i would have met your dad, i would have met your mum
she would have said "please, can you make some beautiful babies?"

so we would have had a boy called tom and a girl called susan, born in japan

i saw it was a love story, but you don't want to get involved
i saw it was a love story, but you're not ready for that ...

me neither. i'll kill her
she stole my future, she broke my dream
i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future when she took you away

she's a bitch you know, all she's got is blondeness
not even tenderness, yeah, she's cleverless
she'll dump your arse for a model called brendan
he will pay for beautiful surgery 'cause he's full of money

i would have waited like a week or two
but you never tried to reach me
no, you never called me back
you were dating that bleach-blonde girl
if i find her, i swear, you know, i swear, i swear ...

i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future, she broke my dream
i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future when she took you away
i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future, she broke my dream
i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future when she took you away

man, i told you, you know, if i find her,
i really, i, i mean, i'll kill her, for real!
it's like for sure, you have to know, uh,
i mean, you know, i can do it, man,
i'll kill her.

2009-03-22T03:59:00.000+08:00

Korn was fucking awesome.

enough said.

2009-03-08T02:28:00.002+08:00

sometimes,
some things are better left unsaid.

sometimes,
its better to fuck up alone,
than to drag others in the same boat.

sometimes,
i wish i could just alter the situation,
and never fuck up.

but that wouldn't be called life,
would it?

latest update in my life :

MAJOR FUCK UPS.

2009-02-15T22:22:00.002+08:00

lost .
totally lost.

how do i rectify with the situation ?
how do i comprehend the never ending pain in me?
confusion strikes.

reality check.

i need you.

when he pulled me in, i was disgusted with myself.

2009-02-12T04:30:00.002+08:00

speechless.
nothing to actually say to express what i am experiencing now.

ive been blamed right in the face for no FUCKING REASON?
ive moved on with somebody new,
informed the old party.

all in a sudden ?

all i got back were attacks.
saying how i left the old party for the new one.
AKU ?

CHEATED? LEFT MY BOYFRIEND FOR ANOTHER GUY?

SERKAP JARANG?
CAKAP MACAM-MACAM?

takpe.
cakap la. nak gaduh, tak larat la.
mcm budak-budak nak update status kat facebook nak threat threat.
biar je la dia tuh.

as far as im concerned,
i didnt leave HIM for the other guy.
i left him cause he was no longer worth it.

goodnight.

2009-02-10T00:43:00.001+08:00

was admitted in the hospital.
drop dead.

bloody stress.
i really dont know what to blog anymore.

life's meaningless.

2009-01-31T20:24:00.002+08:00

pathetic. silly. stupid. EGOISTIC.

best description.
im finally free, free from claws.
or perhaps he is free from claws. me that is.
im sure he is pretty much happy now.
showing off ego, pride to the world, worse, to me.

even at the edge of breaking apart, he still has the nerves and infinity amount of ego, packed together ready for battle. not even a slight care, nor regrets.
how loser and pathetic can someone become ?
i am indeed a touch and go girl. when i left, you assaulted me with harsh words,
pointing fingers around, and gave it to my face.

in reality, what is it all about? who was the cause?
how guys can BE BLOODY FUCKED UP ARROGANT.
please dont think you are superior than any other mankind.
if you are wrong, YOU ARE WRONG. dont manipulate things just to show YOUR BIG HEAD..
fuck u i hate you.

NOW YOU'RE RUNNING BACK ?after long messages of FUCKING AND SCREWING ME UP?
BLAMING ME FOR HAVING ANOTHER FUCKING GUY?

BODOH BODOH BODOH.
lelaki mmg bodoh. im the one pouring out my grief, my sadness, how you treat me.
you were indeed veryyyyyyyyyyy wrong. but you just cant let it be easy.
instead.

you say im leaving cause i have another guy.
lelaki memang manusia gila.

you ruined it even more. i thought i needed time, but you just can't "let me go" easily, you couldn't stand it and BANGED ME. with all ur harsh words. yes i did say those harsh words bout you. BUT IT WAS ALL TRUE. you called me names, you made assumptions bout my future dating life. in short, you described me as a WHORE. YOU FELL IN LOVE WITH THIS WHORE LONG TIME AGO RIGHT? yeah.

thanks for making my life easier, because of your strike back, ITS NOW EASY TO STICK TO MY DECISION.

let's make it permanent.
fuck you. i hate you.

2009-01-16T22:06:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel too lazy to update,
maybe its just cause im not in the mood.
nothing new actually, same old shit. same routine, so much of work.
i cant believe the workload this semester is killing me so hard.
its like working 9-5 everyday, yes indeed, at night, apart from the usual mamak routine,
ive to worry bout assignments, tonnes of them.

dammit.

im thankful though, i do get my dose of happyness from my beloved ones.
sometimes, they just piss me off at the wrong time jugak,
but what to do, i cant please everyone.

nak buat macam mana kalau dah tak rasa apa apa.

2009-01-11T02:15:00.002+08:00

jalan jalan cari jalan.
haha i still remember that line.

today got up at 2 pm, had somewhat a 'dream', only to realise it wasnt a dream,
i was INDEED talking to mama and Alya earlier.hehe, she was talking bout getting up, and eating her quiche that she baked especially for meeeeeeeee! ;)
thanks mama! ;) ;)

to me she was only mumbling, well i think i did? teeeheeeheheee.
i woke up only to find out no one was at home, yeah i remembered some words that came out from mama's mouth, she was going to this wedding. i woke up, washed my face, brushed my teeth, headed straight to the kitchen to treat myself for the long overdue quiche ive been asking mama!

sangat la happy, makan sambil terseyum. literally. gila kan ?
nadirah messaged me and ajak me to go to curve's flea market then PWTC, some youth 09 event was on.

i contemplated, and then decided to go, she fetched me, headed to pwtc, met up with Adean, SOpey, they had some graffiti demo. us girls, sinah me nad then did our ritual window shopping (konon la) last last beli jugak! heheheh. bumped into Faiza! which happens nearly every week? every 2 weeks?! jodoh ? hahahhhaha! happy birthday hun! ;) ;)

balik , dropped by k.j, lepak old town with ayu adam and the same group, then headed back home. yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i nak makan that quiche lagi. goodnight!

2009-01-08T22:59:00.003+08:00

happy belated new year.
gosh, its been so long, so many things to do, so occupied with everything!
ive started the semester feeling rather jovial .
ask me why and i cant give you the perfect answer. i feel less pressure.
yes , Alhamdullilah, therefore i can concentrate on my work even more better. insyallah ;)

im not really sure on what to update, im having a great time through out my days of 2009,
everythings going well, not much burden , at least not yet kan ?
im right now renting at Kristal Kondo with my bestest friends ;)
having an awesome time.

this semester, my batch will be organizing the Archifest,
theme : + - (plus minus)
will update on facebook group, do drop by k!
tentative 5,6,7th feb ;-)

and for those of you who is interested in setting up a booth for the archiday itself,
it can be in form of Foodstuff, merchandise, clothing, bla bla, do tell me!
rent is veryyyy cheap ;)

and perhaps any guest band?
;-)

drop me a line.!

goodnight peeps.

2008-12-20T22:10:00.002+08:00

nak cakap macam mana lagi?
kalau dah benci, you'll be axed forever la.
kalau design bodo budak darjah 1, atau budak course pertanian yang takde architectural background pun boleh lepas. but not me yang bersusah payah, DAH TAK TAHU NAK CAKAP APA LA KAN.
macam pundek.

fuck it.

2008-12-14T00:45:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
i hate Gossip Girl Episode 13.
hate itttttttttttttttttttttttt.
benci benciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

but yeah, i do have to praise the director for 'playing hard to get' .

dammit.

i hate you Aaron, since day 1.

oh, i love you Chuck & Dan. Sorry Nate, ive no feelings for you. you're cute, but too predictable.

yes, im addicted.

2008-12-13T03:26:00.002+08:00

light up light up, as if you have a choice. uhuh, leona lewis is singing snow patrol's RUN.
to me, it sounds so weird. blerghh.

mama is struggling in the kitchen, a different direction of business for tomorrow's jumble sale.
hehe, from clothing line to food stuff. if you dream of tasting some great food, this is what to expect. . Nasi Lemak, Apple Crumble, Food Tarlet, Karipap, etc. ahaa..
not forgetting Bubble Tea & Snow Shakes!

come come!

oh btw,

Happy 7th Anniversary Travis Barker . @ 32nd Anniversary. ;-)

i love you so. ;-) ;-)

2008-12-11T01:42:00.004+08:00

things happened for a reason kan ? ;-)
if it wasnt for everything that has happened, we wouldnt appreciate what we have.
"in loss, we start to appreciate everything".

4 years later.
fated.
that we found each other again.
may we have the strength NOT to break again, insyallah.

i love you dearest, i really do. you know who you are.
everyone deserves a second chance, don't they?

pretty much in love.
let's pray.
Amin.

2008-12-10T17:22:00.002+08:00

i slept for too long, im having such a terrible headache, yeah it happens,
either when you sleep for too short or for too long, everything gets fucked up no matter what. sigh. thanks for my saviour though, the great companion in my dream last night *grins* ;-)

however, i had a great day yesterday with Travis Barker, ;-) it was our usual weekly dating day, considering tuesday is his day off. not knowing where to go at first, i surprised him with a plan to go to SUnway first, not literally surprise la, we had our round of delicious Bubble Tea ;-) sangat sedap okay, its the one at dataran mentari. i surveyed the wholesale price as well, since this weekend, me, sinah, ayu and nadirah will be joining the Jumble Sale @ The Big Blue House! ;-) Selling bubble teas that is. ;-) Travis took the blueberry while i definitely took the Chocolate, it was awesome, rich in flavour unlike some kodi place.

having our addictive drinks, we then headed down to the Curve, and guess what we did? ! Red Boxing! ;-) teeeheeee! just the two of us, how cool is that. it was effin cheap, we got the promotion sms, 8++ from 1pm - 8pm. we were there at 4 something though, thats enough for the two of us! 3 hours. the best part was, the waitress then asked us whether we would like to have the buffet dinner which starts at 6pm, only add rm 10 ! how cheap and cool is that? we said yes definitely! filling our tummy, singing our lungs out, it was great , such a fun, romantic day out. i wish the day never ended though :( .

<3>

2008-12-09T01:23:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha everyone! ;-)

went back Melaka for a day, had some lemang, ketupat and rendang that nenek cooked as usual. delicious, scrumptious, addictive.

smiling a moment ago,
can this be infinite? ;-) how is it possible to maintain such generous portion of happyness everytime i look over some mushy SMS-es from him? ;-)
i thought it only happens during the initial stage,
but im thankful i still have the sparks, even when the slightest silly event occurs ;-)

i can't wait for our day tomorrow ;-)
i miss him too much i guess <3

love you always,
your FAT HOUSE CAT. <3

2008-12-05T00:47:00.008+08:00

wishing Travis Barker a HAPPY 23rd BELATED BIRTHDAY! ;)

thanks for the night out, the lovely dinner, and for being with me on your special, joyous day <3
from batting cage, to the nearly-happen-ice skating (hehe) , romantic dinner on bukit ampang ;)
just the two of us. it was a different atmosphere eh considering it was just the 2 of us having dinner and walking up the look up point tower? ;)

and so, i tricked him.
i planned a small surprise party for him, thanks to Zul, Ain, Mimi, Ah Bear, Mior, Zali, it all happened, ;) thanks sangat sangat. i ordered 2 boxes of cupcakes themed BATMAN! yeah he is a sucker for superheroes, especially batman.

and guess what i got him for his birthday? a batman towel! yeah as well as Ahead Drumsticks , Lars Ulrich's signature series. (i got him the KISS series back then in 2004), and finally a pair of shoes for him, as much as i wanted to get him this Onitsuka pair, i realised it was more in favour of my choice rather than his, i actually remembered him pointing out in the store to this Aasic shoes. and so i gave him exactly that! lucky me, he liked it ;)

im glad i tried my best to make his birthday a day to remember. perhaps for the next couple of months. haha. thanks to everyone. all the hardwork , thoughts, favour, i owe you big time ;)

here are some photos:!

OH BTW,

I AM SO SO SO SO LOVING TWILIGHT!

watched it for the second time at the cinemas today.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, the movie is so exhilirating.

no, not just cause it was rob pattison.

but the whole movie.

the soundtracks are fucking awesome.

addicted!

nyam nyam nyam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-30T02:54:00.002+08:00

the 3 most important people in my life dissappointed me.

they misunderstood, judged and two of them even made me feel like i was a third wheel instead of being apart of them.

one simply misjudged me over and over again,
thanks.

i thought i knew them,
i thought they knew me.

i thought wrong.

looking forward for a good start tomorrow, i hope i feel better tomorrow morning, thanks to the jumble sale i have my day occupied instead of having my mind clauded with emotions.
i feel evil hormones rising in me, hatred dominating, must be that time of the month.

no wonder.

over and over again,
i thought wrong.
fucking dammit.

2008-11-28T01:07:00.003+08:00

ive graduated.
HA! sangat! .
yeah graduated from my AutoREVIT Architecture course ;-)

it was fun, knowledgable, and yeah it expanded my horizon in this field even more.
hopefully, i can strive ahead even more. insyallah.

anyways, im going to set a booth again for this coming weekend jumble sale at

THE BIG BLUE HOUSE.

do come over, ive so many new stuff to sell,
new handbags going as low as rm 18, accessories and so much more.
datanggg!

2008-11-25T03:41:00.002+08:00

i cant remember when was the last time i took the public transportation,
hence, the journey i embarked today was GOD! HORRIFIC yet adventurous.
i encountered scary, funny, disgusting moments.
anyways, the reason of public transportion, was because i had autoREVIT architecture class at UTM, Jalan Semarak. i still do have, till thurs. the idea of me driving all the way down there, is a big NO. i witnessed the overwhelming traffic, orang tak tau duduk rumah agak nya. go car pool lah! tak ke menyusah kan orang macam i? HOHO.

i woke up as early as 6 am, groggy, cranky, i dragged my ass and mandi.
yesterday dah lah buat jumble sale at THE BIG BLUE HOUSE in k.j.
so penat, bilik mcm sampah (forever and ever fact), i was stucked in my room not knowing what to wear, i change thrice. like shit you know. i had to consider the fact im taking lrt and bus, mesti banyak pervert so kena pakai proper. hahaha, not that ive been wearing inproper clothes before, but you know what i mean.

i was stunned to know people actually que up to go in the LRT, which was great of course, just jaKon i guess. it was like tin sardine, nowdays bukan bus je, dulu bus mini, now LRT, HOH! same story. scary disgusting part was, i was squashed near to this mamat tua pakistan yang gatal. macam ERGHHHH!!!!!. and he was fucking staring at me, and not ashamed of it!!! everytime ill catch him staring and he'll look back lawan tau! shit fuck ok?
funny scenes. to see people actually sleep whilst standing was hilarious!!!! too many of them. i was surprised. so many perangai and kerenah.

oh GOd, not to mention the rapid kl ride, yeah true, it wont be called 'rapid' if it wasnt rapid eh?
seriously dude, not for the faint heart, pregnant ladies. yes i jakon i know. ive never been on a rapid kl as in betol2 tengah k.l. macam orang gila ok? naik roller coaster!

reached destination safely, Alhamdullilah.
it was such an adventure. tomorrow?

what say you?

2008-11-23T04:07:00.002+08:00

many posts within few hours just show how bored or rather disturbed i am.
i just need to let go. let it out, pour my grief , ive yet to achieve the serenity in me.
everyone has their obsession right? my obsession seems to be vague.

i am not sure what i know, what i feel, what i want to do.
it cannot be controlled. what do you do when you feel like screaming and just give up ?
even a small matter could traumatised your whole vision of the past, present and future.
what do you do when you're in dire need of attention but you've simply been pushed away eagerly?
what do you do when you don't have the strength to act the way they do?
what do you when you feel like dying to know they can live without you?
so many questions, so many confusions, time is running out.

a simple matter, diagnosed, scrutinized, ... resulted into a massive dilemma.

finally,
what do you do when the person you care takes you for granted?
retreat ? i'm in too deep to do that.

its all happening again.
in loss you'll start appreciating. but this time, i'm not so sure.

goodnight.

2008-11-23T01:21:00.002+08:00

Sometimes my emotions get in the way,
to your concern, warmth and beauty I become blind.

And when you're not around to cheer up my day,
I realise a girl like you is impossible to find.

Sigh, i miss that person who wrote this. =(
when will things change for the better?

2008-11-23T01:08:00.002+08:00

im listening to The Roots - You've Got me,
then i remembered this one story, have you heard Malique's new song?
the one which actually sounds EXACTLY like The Roots? apparently you know,
when Travis Barker went jamming at Ampang the other day and i tagged along,
we got in, and i heard this remix of the original song combined with Malique's.
it was as though someone was actually re-mixing it at that time, then, out came the co-owner..

we said hi, and he was like "hey kau dah dengar tak lagu malique yang baru?"
we replied "tak, but mmg dengar yang kau remix tuh , mcm sebijik je dua lagu tuh, only in different languages"

he then replied "haaaa kau nak tau cerita, aku pernah dgr lagu tuh, aku dah ckap apesal bunyi mcm the roots? then hari tuh , malique call aku, dia tanya aku dah dengar tak lagu baru dia, aku cakap la, dah ..tapi apesal sebijik macam the roots - you've got me? lepas tuh kau tau malique cakap apa??? "THE ROOTS? ehhh , takda lah...the roots tiru aku kot?"

TIRU?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THE ROOTS TUH DAH ZAMAN TOK JANGGUT KOT??!!!!
get a life la malique.
puh-lease.

2008-11-19T20:59:00.002+08:00

one thing that i should remind you is,
DON'T EVER deal with a lion if you're not prepared to face the music if anything should go wrong.

consistent bad remarks, complaints, yelling, shouting, harsh shits will come out from this so-called fierce creature.

guess who?
my mom that is.

no wonder i get all the exciting traits, if you can't handle me the baby lion, baby ke? macam geli je.. please please don't try to even think you can tolerate the monster lion.

2008-11-15T06:31:00.002+08:00

pretty random but i feel like shaking to a micheal jackson's number now,
its 6.42 in the morning and my speakers are bombing with thriller, billy jean, even heal the world.

sleeping time has gone down the drain, i slept fo 5 hours earlier and now im up doing my final touch up for design. i can't wait to finish! start the holidays and indulge myself with something new. at least for abit. why do i feel so pressured? is it the constant reminder i get indirectly from everything and everyone? sigh.

i pretty much have my holidays planned for now, not going for practical as i dont see the purpose of me actual going when i know what are the consequences. mama and papa seemed to be worried, they thought my studies will be neglected if i choose this path, but dont worry, it wont and i know what i'm doing.

earlier today brought Mama to Shah Alam to show her my rumah sewa for next semester. ive convinced mama and papa that i'll be just fine staying out of college. so finally i settled down in Kristal Kondo with my bestest friends. Ayu, Sinah, Nana and Jez. 5 of us. they invited and yeah, glad it happened. its a pretty cool place, the hall is enormous, quite lah, and i like the setting of it.
cant wait to furnish the house! :D nanti nak buat house warming party, datang lah ;)

sakit perut. lapar.
when can i get my chocolate chip cookie dough? ;(

p/s: To Travis Barker and band mates (PINK ACID), you guys did great at Global Battle of The Bands, tak menang takpa, you guys are still wickedly eccentric & Pink Acid rocks! ;)
top 15 in Malaysia! thats a heroic background already. ;) ;) ;)

2008-11-12T03:17:00.002+08:00

Of Jiwang & Vintage

papers are finally over, ive yet to define the real meaning of freedom,
after review im determine to give a whole new meaning to 'freedom'.
no matter how cliche it gets, im still gonna be a free girl. yeay!

indulging myself into jiwang songs and vintage stuff,
why jiwang, adakah ku sudah menjadi insan yang berbeza kini ?
vintage stuff? mungkin kah semangat ibuku pada zaman 70 an menhantui ku ?

God knows.

might be setting up a table for this weekend's jumble sale with mama,
Mama :"Mama dah tak larat tgk your room, plenty of unwanted clothes"
Me : "Hey! nanti nak pakai lah, never know Alya might fit in"
Mama : "i dont care, pergi jual, lets set up a booth, mama dah tak sabar wanna get into biz! then perhaps make some money with your clothes (smile mischievously)"
Me : "Heyyyyy! most of the clothes i buy with my own money! Where fair?"
Mama : "Amboii...berkira yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!"

Cis.

i belanja you cuppiecakes k mama.
money i wanna buy new clothes. shoes.bags.
finally i can shop for things i want instead of things i need when busy with design shit.

2008-10-31T23:37:00.002+08:00

its been so long.

finally,
1 paper is over.
building construction was hell.
i wonder if i ever goin to pass. damn.

ive been so busy with design, (yes got over that)
now finals.
not much update.

2 papers to go.
review.
then the holidays.

ahhh, i cant wait.
heading to bijou bazaar tmrw! ;)

2008-10-17T07:14:00.002+08:00

im experiencing those type-of-days...

where nescafe becomes a tool for my everyday life, ensuring my sanity,

where my shirt is covered with debris,

my fingers get cut, result of being too engrossed ... or perhaps too effin sleepy?

i sometimes shower once in 2 days, disgusting, i know thank you, main reason: stuck in the studio

i only wash my face and brush my teeth everyday (see, not that disgusting)

where i dont have my night life, excluding burning midnight lamps to finish up design,

where i stumble across people at the faculty wearing different attires, while i still wear the same clothes since the day before,

where i only sleep 1-2 hours a day just to generate my energy, and NOT for leisure.

thats why, this blog is rather slow for now.

i need to get back to the otherside of the world.

at least till monday.

then i am going to fucking-get-out!

2008-10-06T01:09:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya ; Maaf Zahir & Batin.

not in my best mood,
i feel very discouraged over something uncertain.

do you think id get my shot to redeem myself?

someone told me the theme of my blog is 'Emo'.
perhaps that explains myself kan?
here it is i sense an emotional letdown coming right up.

i'm no perfect, no one is. as cliche as it is, ever thought why its a cliche if its not entirely true?
i may not be the right person for him,
i may look different outside, am i delivering the wroDng signal ?
another cliches goes ' dont judge book by its cover'
but my background says it all i guess :(

just because i LOOK wealthy.
just because i am SOMEONES daughter.
just because i DRESS UP the way i do.
just because i TALK loudly.
just because i MIGHT NOT LOOK religious.
just because i LOOK materialistic.
just because i LOOK like someone who will grab a millionaire man as my future.
just because...
just because...
just because...

that doesnt mean i am not capable of doing something entirely different.
i am here to prove to you.

i love you, only you.

2008-09-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

ive been mourning.
i needed theraphy.
thanks to the raya shopping spree, my emotions improved.

got my baju kurung pahang at kompleks PKNS.
fcuking crowded. i hated it.
for the first time, i managed to beat my fickle mind and chose something really fast!

why?
thanks to the crowd. it was unbearable!
i got myself a brown baju kurung. not too bad lah the design, considering last minute shopping.
banyak size dah habes so syukur i got mine fast!
Abang's baju melayu is this dwiplex sorta colour. brown ...and rainbow? erghhh..

this year theme :earth colour. even papa's baju melayu!

headed down to pyramid since we didnt know where else to go for normal clothing. Ou was too far, mid valley was out of the way.

thank God ive been spending my precious time for the past 2 weeks at pyramid ;
hair show, hair appointment shit , hence i had the ample time to target what i wanted.
result? :
fast shopping! under controlled - papa's mood. hehe, he hates when i cant make up my mind.

i got myself a pair of faded grey jeans. not skinny, but a combination of skinny + straight cut?
oh im not sure.

Abang as usual he'll be the one yang raya sakan. meaning which:
his stuff will sum up the same as mine, but quantity? a quarter from mine. really.
like this:

i got 4 tops from Forever 21. equivalent to a pair of shoe from Puma that he got.
so its not fair if Papa says "You've got enough, cukup"
damn!
padahal ? kononnya Abang nampak sikit. so basically he got baju melayu and sneakers.
sama dengan my 4 tops + jeans ? HOh!

sokay. im happy with my buys. shoes?
i didnt wanna dig more from papa, perhaps from mama next?
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! ;)

p.s: mowgly i miss you ;(

2008-09-27T13:27:00.002+08:00

i was awaken by the loud door that was opened.
i opened my eyes only to hear mama said

"Mowgly dah mati, jiran saw him in the drain"

i ran and ran to the drain with her.

and i saw Mowgly. my favourite cat, his face partially facing the drain, in water.
i cried.

i walked off.
i cried and cried in the house.
called Abang out he rushed outside.
he was upset as well..
i couldnt stand the sight.
i couldnt stand my tears.
i took my towel and took my bath, there..i cried over and over again.

mowgly was such a cutie, intelligent cat.
he's only 1 year and 3 months.
im crying myself now.
i miss him already.

hes the type of cat who will jump on you at sleep in between you to feel the warmth of your body.

i wonder how he died.
but i wouldnt wanna think of it anymore.
it crushes me deep inside.

R.I.P MOWGLY.
you'll be deeply missed. ;(

2008-09-27T04:08:00.002+08:00

FORMER Blink-182 drummer Travis Barker has been critically injured in a Learjet crash in the United States that killed four people.
Federal Aviation Administration spokeswoman Kathleen Bergen said the plane carrying six people was leave South Caroline at midnight last night when air traffic controllers saw sparks, Associated Press has reported.
The plane veered off a runway, through a fence and crashed on a road, she said.
Barker and celebrity US disc jockey DJ AM are in hospital with severe burns, hospital spokeswoman Beth Frits said.
Two other passengers and two crew members are believed to have died in the crash.
Barker and Goldstein had performed together at a concert in Columbia last night, Associated Press has reported.

apparently the cause of the plane crash was due to a tyre blow.

thank god my baby's okay ;( (yeah the real one)

thanks for the news my other half; travis barker.

okay now im getting myself confused.

nice.

2008-09-27T02:51:00.002+08:00

BEYOND HORROR.

i downloaded Gossip Girl season 2, but only managed to scoop episode 1 and 3,
cant seem to find for episode 2. tension.

and so, i just finished watching episode 2 when i was bout to further my obsessive journey to episode 3 just as sneak preview before i find episode 2.

i realised....
it was only a 20 minute-file, i thought, or perhaps the user had 2 parts ke?
i opened...

only to find.....

that it was...

1 BALD BLACK MAN & 1 CAUCASIAN HOLDING EACH OTHER'S PENIS AND STARTED DOING THEIR THING....!

FUCKING GAY PORN..

let's play a teka teki.
dalam banyak banyak politician in our country, siapa kah yang akan
meng-enjoy this video the most?!!!!

i belanja you kuih raya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fuck. my mind is now polluted.

2008-09-25T03:26:00.003+08:00

Ed Westwick.

it wasnt LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.
it was developed throught the whole chapter.
i was drooling over Penn, then over Chace,

after the season was totally over. i realised i was more in love with Ed. (ahhhhhhhhhhh!)

the best part?
he's british. oh thats hot.
he's the lead singer of a PUNK ROCK band called THE FILTHY YOUTH.

how HOT is that?
<3>

i fell in love with Ed Westwick. and OH NO, not wich Chuck Bass(tard).

www.myspace.com/thefilthyyouth to listen/see them rock.

p/s: saya tidak akan tidur malam ini. sangat obsess.

2008-09-24T01:40:00.004+08:00

i would like to congratulate Travis Barker and band mates for being featured on Fly FM's campur chart last Sunday!

their band Grape has released their first single, titled Alone In Space.

i know i am being bias if i say thats my favourite song. but it is! heheheh.

congrats congrats guyS!, rock On! ;)

do check their track : at www.myspace.com/grapemusic !

and vote for them on Fly.fm if you like it ;)

2008-09-23T23:58:00.005+08:00

kittens galore! ;)
my new kittens, they're a month old, therfore time for photoshoot! is there such tradition ?
hehe.
i have four of em. sangat comel. obviously everyone has their favourite kitten kan?

my favourite! , DOlly ;)

from top: Zorro, Romeo, Dolly, Bella(changed from Cruz cause baru tau shes a girl!)

Zorro & Bella

Romeo & Dolly

Over and over again! DOLLY! :):):)

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....i love.

2008-09-21T16:24:00.002+08:00

raya cards and so much more! ;)
i havent been indulging into raya cards for the past few years and now im back to business!

raya is no longer an agenda i quite look forward to after the death of my beloved Arwah Atuk, ;(
i miss him so badly and not even words nor expression can describe how i feel.
i did a terrible mistake, a fucked up one for not visiting him on his last few days on earth ;(

and i shall never take my family for granted again.

--------------------------------------------------

mama baking cookies! yippie, choc chip oats, yum yum yummy, i can smell it now,
the molecules (issit?) can simply satisfy my choc appetite. hehe, but then again,
i can never leave as it is, obviously, real consumption is needed, right?

currently working on my design for crit.
whats my concept?

FUCK CONCEPT!

2008-09-20T01:39:00.003+08:00

how can you tolerate with much nonsense regarding your academic when you know you've fight too hard for it yet to no avail ?

ignore.

baskin robbins, double scoop. pure chocolate & chocolate chip cookie dough flavoured ice cream,
sinfully delicious. ;)

at least that made my day. with travis barker, he was divinely yummy! heheh. :-*
adakah ku akan jatuh di timpa tangga lagi ?

how my life will be later on when the results come out? i still have another chance.
another chance that might me sabotaged by -------------------------.....

rakan rakan, mari kita berjuang. i hope i could go sky high.

P/s: ku merindui zaman KITTIE ku, mari mendengar, charlotte, brackish, spit, paperdoll, into the darkness dan banyak lagi.

2008-09-19T02:47:00.003+08:00

great to be on the bed, feel the soft cotton pillow under my head, in between my legs and in my arms.
Watchin a marathon of family guy, a cup of coffee, barley, ginger beef with rice are a killer combination.

Yes, i choose and look highly upon family guy compared to simpsons. Thank you.
I miss him.

P/s: still craving for baskin robbins.

2008-09-19T00:00:00.005+08:00

took me sometime to upload some photos of the fashion show i did for a cut above salon,

yeah, i was no beautiful at all. the hair looks funny on me, my eyelashes was one of a kind,

as i was late, therfore there was only the peacock-style lashes left,

and i was the veryyy 'lucky' one!

hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha it was my first time on the runway,
as i said and told to travis, i was the fattest model there, proven me right! ;)

cant wait to get those cash vouchers and re model my hair!
for good that is.

design's going towards the right destination. i hope.

tonights gonna be filled with another run of first season of gossip girls and family guy.
anyone has gossip girls season 2? i heard dah boleh download, but im just to fcuking lazy to do so.

goodnight love.

p/s: oh, im so craving for baskin robbins. anyone? ;)

with Cellina, the cute petite BIG SISTER! she's 26!!

with Ivy and my stylis, Eric.

wonder women.

with one of the body art model, Aqilah.

one hot mama, Grace.

2008-09-15T03:00:00.005+08:00

sweetness all over,

im flying to the top, i could only cry, and smile :)

tears of happyness. im so thankful for being so blessed this way ;)

so ironic that as he called , my ringtone for him - Secondhand Serenade - fall for you.

he doesnt call me on my maxis, but happy, but having him calling my maxis, with the song

playing. it was so ironic, when i discovered....

as i unlocked the front door gate, i saw his car came swooshing by my house, i walked out discreetly. he got out and i saw this Speedy Video plastic bag. (takkan bagi DVD? i thought to myself). hehe, he uttered...

"this thing is very fragile, you have to be very careful, you have to let it grow

(i thought again, POKOK ke?)

i smiled, and i ask, whats this? and he just mumbled the same thing as the above.

i said i had to go =(

i thanked him and we hugged before we bid farewell.

he said "i love you"

i melted inside. after the row we had, i missed him ever so badly ;(

i love you too, i replied.

walked back inside...slowly...

entered my room and unpacked the plastic bag only to find this mysterious black box...

with turqouise paper with hot pink fonts! how sweet, my favourite colour combination!!!

sangat sweet....

a cupcake with a sad face :( with 4 candles.

the cutest thing popped out! ...

a hand made clay - sorta mixed playdough ...shaped LION! (me that is hehehe)

tomato. or MATO (he calls me that, ;) which he got it from my dad!)

its the cutest thing ever, he even asked me to colour it with him! cant wait sayang, thank you. ;) for being so sweet, thoughtful. you prove to be the one and only guy i ever dream of wanting,

very very very funny and young at heart when you have to. ;) yet, firm and serious when you have to. i love you so much my travis barker! :) :)

2008-09-14T01:54:00.002+08:00

will you still love me in the morning?

forever & ever babe.

makes me smile everytime i watch this part of the movie "CLICK" =)

however makes me sulk all over again to know the situation right now.
which seems to go nowhere.
i know i am strong, but i am too weak inside. every other thing will make me crumble and fall.

why'd you have to break my heart?
why'd you have to walk off just to make you feel like a winner?
why'd you have to shout as though i was the wrong one?

why'd you have to act this way when you know i just care. :'(

happy anniversary.

2008-09-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

day by day im approaching towards the end of semester,
am i dreaming? everyday seems so fast, going through the same cycle over and over again,
now im already commencing into my 2nd project.

oh please, no more failure.

ive been skipping class on tuesday for 4 consequences week. gila. kan ?
well i was sick, at least 2 out of 4. overslept today and i felt bad. urgh.
in the evening accompanied my travis barker to pyramid for a haircut and the A CUT ABOVE salon,
academy to precise. so basically its cheaper and my oh my, they will take forever to cut your hair, considering
they're still students and they know they HAVE THE RIGHT to take their own sweet time, hence, the cheapo price.
travis seems to like the way they cut, our first experience was at the cut-a-thon event last month at the pyramid centrecourt.
it took about 50 min for the hairdresser to cut his precious hair. for a man's hair. gila lama. but yeah it turned out nice ;)

i was walking around the academy while waiting for the never ending cut session. i saw walls covered with mahjong paper
with notes and tutorial writing all over, how cool, we architecture students have similiarities with hairdressing students.
they use 'elevations', sections' of the head! its rather funny though. section of the head (and i was already imagining the brain)
i tried understanding the tutorials but i failed, there were HOW to - flat perm, layer hair, zig zag, bla bla.. cool!
i had one critic though on the academy (an architecture student's point of view) the bloody staircase to the academy is fucking steep.
fucking fucking steep. they're trying to save space as well, choosing the spiral staircase as an alternative was not the right pick i believe
as it restricts smooth circulation considering the high traffic of students there. but hello???? safety please? trust me, its effing scary,
i had to hold on (another reason to be lovey dovey) to travis's arms so i wont trip and fall. haha.

i coulndt help but noticed how these 2 hairdressers were looking at me. i ignored. and 15 minutes later, i was taking a tour on my own,
she approached

"Hey, can you be my model?"
"model? er...."
"oh, i just wanna take a photo of you to put in my portfolio"
"erm, Oh okay"

at this point i was thinking, is she going to make over me at that point?

and she finally explained she was just gonna paste the photo and write a comment under it by suggesting what could be done to my hair.
and so mine was...'SETTING & STYLING'.

why? cause she said i have fine curls. ;)
like people say,
bulan puasa, a holy month, bulan rezeki?
rezeki melimpah.

2nd approach story.
i walked back to travis' cubicle and this lady boss walked right out the office and looked at me and smiled.
i saw her approaching another lady boss and it was pretty obvious they were mengumpat-ing me. haha,
10seconds later.

"girl, are u still studying or working?"
"studying, why?"
"are u interested to become our salon's model"
hahahahahahah I WAS LAUGHING AND SNICKERING AND (INSERT ANY HORRIBLE FACIAL EXPRESSION)
"im not sure, its sounds fun and great, but me?"
"yeah, just as a hair model, we have this hair exhibition/show at PWTC this coming tues, our stylist will re style your hair and we'll dress you up and
you just have to do some cat - walking"
"haha, er,,, me? ill have to think bout it."
"you'll be paid, rm150 of cash voucher from our salon"

i didnt think of the payment at all, i just thought the whole experience would be fun!
i just need to come for 3 rehersals (1 hour per slot) and thats all?
and i get a free hair makeover by a professional stylist?
PROPER SHOW AT PWTC?
wow.

but, why did they choose me? bukan minah minah model usually very very very slender ke?
i wonder.
i even joked with travis.
"Sayang, im pretty sure kan, ill be the FATTEST MODEL (compared to the typical model body)there...HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH"
he replied.

"hahaha, are you sure? you never know you might be the thinnest there...cause who knows this salon goes for fatty bums bums'

hahaha. okay so im going for it even if it means sacrificing my buka puasa with my whole beloved friends at bukit ampang, which
ill still be joining later at night tomorrow for shisha and late buka puasa.

3rd approach. (no kidding) gila desperate these people.
this was fun.
the hairdresser that cut travis' hair asked whether do i have any plans to colour or do anything to my hair,
and i replied yeah, im interested in highlighting actually so she said,
middle of this month, there'll be this senior students examination where external examiners will come and
grade them. so they need hair models. more like GUINEA PIGS!
but she reminded 'dont worry, this is not experimental, we have proper examiners' hahahha.
the best part ?!
its their exam and ITS ABSOLUT-FCUKINGLY FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! whole head color + highlights!
heeeeeeeeeeee....

syukur Alhamdullilah.
even if its rather more to leisure punya rezeki.
im still thankful ;)

bloody hell, how the hell do i cat walk.
im not a freaking model.
dammit.

2008-09-07T03:51:00.002+08:00

currently having so much fun with my new baby,

ehem, no, its just a bloody new phone. haha.
papa got it from DiGi as a free gift, wow, nice one.

and i managed to 'steal' papa's heart away till he decided to flower me with this sexy phone.

N 78! ;)
its not all up-to-date model, but im liking every inch of it ;) its been so long since i last landed a brand new phone, now i will no longer use motorolas. erghh, ive had enough of it. ive always been a nokia baby.

so here it goes, my new born baby ;)

2008-09-06T02:46:00.002+08:00

do you know that i gain weight during puasa month ?

im pretty sure that some of you out there encounters the same phenomena as i am.
its devastating when you think you can tackle all the fats, and food lust during the day, and hope for a slender body as a result, i guess i fail at planning my food intake during break fast.

hence, i am gaining weight.
travis calls me gemuk, not that i actually mind cause he makes it sound so cute and adorable? ;)
its fine, im comfortable the way i am, im not gonna go goo goo gaa gaa on the topic that relates to "oh i sooooooooooooo wanna be thin", its just that i want to be healthy. papa always lectures me by asking me to exercise which i dont do anymore. dammit. i have to. right?

had a conventional buka puasa at home, menu was ikan kembong masak pindang (all time favourite) , sambal sotong, taugeh goreng, and Mak Long gave us mee goreng. everything was pretty much normal. Mama baked jam tarts for raya. and yeah, shes taking orders.

oh yeah, i have 10 other different types of cookies as well to promote, to those of you interested do call me, ill upload the photos soon. and trust me, not being bias, its sedap.! ;) okay perhaps this statement will lean towards bias-ness. haha. you see for yourself la nanti okay!

tomorrow heading to Taylor's college for some research thingy im working on with my design group. current project is : Student's Club in our faculty.

question :IF YOU WERE TO HAVE A STUDENT'S CLUB IN YOU FACULTY, WHAT FACILITY(S) WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE IN IT? (can be gym, yoga, jam studio....bla bla)

im looking for something different, spaces i mean. i was proposing a salon, thatd be cool eh ? ;)

shit, another workload coming right up!

goodnight.

2008-08-31T20:16:00.002+08:00

i got so hooked up with the excitement i forgot to deliver the great news,

ive got 4 new kittens! =D =D
im so so so so so so happy, excited and over the top!
ive yet to take photos of them since they're so petite and Maya the mama cat seems to be protective.
altogether i have 8 cats at home! ;)

names for these cute newborn kitties;

Romeo,
Zorro,
Cruz,
Dolly! ;)

heeeeeeeee, they're so small, petite, as big as the palm of my hand,
bear in mind i have small palms! really! compared to my body size ratio. haha.

another news,
Sani is back in town!
yeah Sani as in Sunny Day,
yeah as in Sani Wan Malik,
yeaaaaaaaaaaa as in Sani Nasha! haha, nasha you have to admit i refer to him as this sometimes.

glad to have him back home. travis was practically surprised (so was i ) when Sani surprised us with his presence at hartamas square yesterday! he came with Zul and Adam. crazy crazy, travis shouted, ran, and JUMPED ON SANI!!! literally!!!! and lemme tell you,
god, when travis gets excited, he shouts real loud, louder than 100 of me put together. really.

damn malu. yet, he's my precious ;)
sani looks different now, actually he does look the same, the same where he left in 2005 was it?
only with a long haired wig and spectacles? a jambu + decent looking Sani now.

pretty sure theres gonna be a lot of get togethers..
sounds like fun!

;)

2008-08-31T18:34:00.002+08:00

happy 51st merdeka to Malaysia & Happy Ramadhan to all muslims.

how time passes us really fast, without realizing, its been a year since we last fasted.
damn shit, this is scary. im getting older each year and whats next ?
i dont wanna live my fun life now. heck no.

congratulations to my beloved Travis Barker for passing his final year examinations with flying oclours and securing a fixed job! yeay! doing what you do best, and im pretty sure you love your field right? playing drums all your life, and not just play but of course educate people.
im still waiting for the period of time where ill be taught by you. yeah. love love love kamu!

last night was pretty solid, predictable plans, i celebrated merdeka at Hartamas Square with my loved one, that was travis of course, they had this celebration thingy where stage was set up and several bands performed. Grape performed, travis was rocking the stage even though he felt sucky afterwards. hey you you were great lah my gorgeous darling ;)

ate like a friggin pig which i happen to do it all the time, had this whole plate of kebab and vege,
kacang botol goreng cili, brownies with ice cream! heeeeeeeeeee best, wanted to order kuey teow, but yeah travis was giving me that look already! hehehhehehehe. =D

yayayyayayaya i feel very funny and fun. yeah funny and fun.
i miss someone so badly even though i have spent my time with him bout 12 hours ago. =(

tomorrow puasa, let's be good! ;)
happy puasa people.

2008-08-28T23:59:00.002+08:00

its a love hate relationship,
i hate being in a bad physical state, emotion wrecked, looking very down and messed up all over,
however i am definitely loving the attention i get when im down with flu and feeling sick, that's when he comes over and make sure i am fully attended. ;)

im not sure what i ate that caused this sickness to occur, fuck food. i woke up at 5 in the evening when i suddenly had this rumbling in my cute round shaped tummy, went to do my big business and no, it was not 'relieving' if you know what im talking bout, its rather more towards the pain side, sangat tak best lah. afterwards, i felt better.

1 hour later, without consuming anything, not even a glass of water, i felt like going to the toilet again! thats painfully insane, it was the type where you couldnt do anything still, yeah, sangat disgusting to imagine when you have 'something' down there trying to push out. hahaha. and so, again to the toilet, after this 2nd attempt, i knew something was not right, i felt weak after that :(
all together i went up to 6 times to the toilet just for big business, its rather tormenting and i just wanted to stay in the toilet instead of going back and forth so many times, not to mention the adventures i had to encounter along the journey :p

and so, so basically i suffered like hell with the tremendous trips to the loo. i was encoutering an overwhelming pain, twisting and turning, a burnin sensation in my tummy i only could lie down, and twas impossible to shut my eyes and go to bed, since the pain was unbearable!! i still had to wake up tp finalise my design, however my body didnt allow me to do so, sangat sakit gila babi, i slept for 3 hours and woke up again, the pain was there to stay. it was a serious thing i thought, i didnt want to end up in the hospital, food poisoning is very dangerous ey ? my dad was nearly 'taken away' when he experienced it in India some time ago. just by drinking mineral water that he bought from a sundry shop. ahhhh, i bet it wasnt mineral water, it was pipe water. seriously, uncivilised villagers.

this morning not to mention was horrible, i decided to go to the doctor's, sangat saket nak mati, nak menanges pun ada, message Encik Embong and told him i couldnt make it for final submission, nak aku mati ? yeah work done. the doctor told me yeah it was food poisoning, some kind of toxin in my body caused the twisting and turning feeling in my tummy. argh!!!!
all together i got 6 types of medication, now im officaly a drugconsumer yangberjaya.
hahahahaha.

now home, slept the whole evening.
he was there thru ups and downs,
he was there when i needed him the most,
he cared for me when i was so weak,
he fed me chicken 'sangwich @ language'
he brought me my favourite Chicken Pizziola
he helped me with the colouring
he kissed me forehead and ensured me ill get better,
most of all, he put me to sleep and made me feel comfortable,

i <3>
thank you my travis barker.

2008-08-25T20:07:00.002+08:00

its a feeling and enjoyment i cant describe,

pulau perhentian was the bomb. lama tak guna ayat tuh. hehehe.

i wanna go again, the best part was we when during full moon, so you can fucking imagine how clear and vivid the moon was at the beach side, so fucking beautiful, at one glance you feel like you're in the movies. i love to hyperbola-ing.

it was a short stay considering everyone's financial limitations, as for me and azim we had design in our minds thru out the journey, (yeke?) seriously, i really miss nemo and dory, snorkling on the other hand was splendid, simply marvellous, breathtaking view and not forgetting muscle cramps. Ayu and Sinah practically passed out on the boat only after the 2nd stop, gila, i couldnt stop, as painful as it was, i wanted to witness the beauty of pulau perhentian ive heard all these while , and it was worth it! the last stop, was paling cantek, its a pity azim red ayu sinah were too penat and they stayed back. Stanley even got himself attacked by seagulls gile kelakar, reminded me of a scene from Finding Nemo.. "MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE, (with the sengau burung tone)"

we stayed at Pulau Perhentian kecil, mat salleh fully loaded, felt like i was somewhere else but Malaysia. its the best trip so far, really. best company, great food, fantastic view, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh romantic. i even went skinny dipping on the last night. oh no, hheheheh kidding, but i did played in the sea at 1 am, on the last day, the best part? the moon light was shining thru the sea, and it was the most romantic scene ever. :D

i wanna go again,
thanks Ayu, Sinah, Red, Azim, Zul, Fahmi, Stanley, Ayie, and not forgetting,,,,, my Travis Barker =D

lastly,

Congrats to Hasinah. SHe has landed a new boy!
Auwwww!

ehhehehe .

2008-08-16T02:34:00.003+08:00

stil in the mood to dance,
what do you expect, i was not satisfied! i didnt quite dance ;(

the party was fine, great food, company, fun stuff.
Sara's 21st birthday party at Planet Hollywood.
i seriously have to give 2 thumbs up for the delicious, scrumptious food. sangat finger licking good i ate my tummy off. my high waisted skirt was so effin ketat sampai my abdoment hurt bloody hell, and yeah, i kept my cool ;P

the theme was retro, i kinda re-defined that overrated 'retro' theme into my own understanding, i was pretty sure people will be dressed up in vibrant colours, considering the ever so popular 70 / 80 's disco era. i kinda went subtle and settled down with Audrey Hepburn's era, not 100% la, but more to a mixture of a real old school style. high waisted skirt + pussybow shirt + opaque tights +pumps. no photos for now.

i was Azim's fashion stylist (gile proud), hahaha. photos on facebook soon. party , makan makan makan, mingle, cam whoring, pool playing, food licking, perut gemuking, dancing with the live band (Sarah's boyfriend, Piran played with his band) , not bad. sang along, my favourite had got to be Creep - Radiohead. menarek.

finished early, since the house band was standing by already so basically the party ended early tak sempat dance :( , but the house band, BIG BAND, rocked hell. they're awesome sangat.
played pool, cam whored, curi helium balloons and became chipmunk, then we decided to lepak Piccadily, he came, and all is fine. =)

monday is THE day. cant wait! ;)

tomorrow heading back to Kampung melaka, Arwah Atuk's tahlil. everyone time i think of you, i miss you so much Atuk. i know you're up there looking at me, i wish i could be there for you during your last few days, ill regret forever ;( Allah loves you more. i love you.

till then..

goodnight.

2008-08-15T02:01:00.003+08:00

once was enough.

twice is too much.

that morning where i received a horrible message of sarcasm,

now, an order for me to shut up ? with an added spice of sarcasm (again!?)

if there's one person who can hurt me real badly for being such a jerk,
and making me drop a tear for reading "dav, can you shut up?"

is none other that YOU.

as tedious as it is to hear my ramblings or read my words, i will never utter such words to such person. in a blink of an eye, you revolved into someone rather different, after receiving such joy and good news in your life. i fucking wonder how will i be treated in the future. being happy for you is not enough, i just needed to be shut off and put away eagerly.

you're happy.
so happy.
im happy for you.
but this is what i get?
get carried away. and i might be left again for good; for the world.

i'll shut up for good now, you've caused a big heart damage already.

2008-08-12T22:12:00.002+08:00

nasi putih + ikan bawal bakar ;)
deliciously sinful.

currently bloated with God-knows-what, im trying to cut down on my food intake,
i need to be healthy not for the sake of dieting. my money is running out fast, on food that is, too tempted to let go of anything. i had 2 beautiful dish today, one as mentioned above and the other being, Khulafa's special BBQ fried chicken. sedap. and its not manis. yeay.

anyone knows where i could scout beautyfool affordable bikinis ? all the blogs are fully sold out and im pissed as hell. sakit hati. im broke yet i wanna go to the much talked about island. im fully prepared for the trip, at least i think i am. without the right wardrobe is a major No. too busy with workload from Uni, im really under pressure. design ideas are not kicking in, assignments are pretty fucked up by lecturers, intimidated by super talented juniors. i dont feel i fit in. i live too much in my own world. sigh.

tomorrow is my 3rd love love month with Travis Barker ;) masih muda this time around yet, we've grown old together before =) its been 6 years of knowing each other ;)
Going for makan makan, spend some quality time together and stare at each other without sayin anything. sounds like a plan ;)

moody day. fucked up week. hope everything turns fine tomorow, i need my life back.

till then.

2008-08-05T02:42:00.002+08:00

i always look up on doctors,
i belive they save lives and they are these very down to earth, delightful, warm creatures.

however, my bad luck, i came across this disgusting doctor today.
God. i will never look up on doctors ever again, unless there's something that will change my mind later in the future.

just imagine, going to the doctor, with no proper greeting (okay i dun really give a fuck with this matter), and given an expression, with no sentence uttered at all by her, to speak out whats wrong with me. and so i did,

and i did.. i talked and talked. all she had to say was "uhuh, uhuh uhuh". with no explaination at all whats wrong with me. me and my mum had to interview her instead. and you know what ???? SHE DIDNT EVEN TOUCH ME AT ALL! NO EXAMINATION AT ALL NOTHING! NOTHINGGGGGGGG!!! dah lah aku jatuh, the whole body semua saket, she didnt even check at all, ada bengkak ke ape ke, check ape ape je laaaaaaaa! babi! then bagi ubat, thats all. whats the point then ? its like going to the pharmacy and telling whats wrong with me and dapat ubat.

if i wanted to go to a fucking pharmacy, i would, idiotic doctor. yeah shes young. i think buat pratical ke apa. orang buat practical semangat, nih mcm bangang. dah lah tak senyum langsung. stupid asshole. ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive taken my medication. still saket. papa called me all the way from Cambodia only to find out im in great pain. what to do. anak tak tahu duduk diam. ive been presented with 2 titles by travis barker which is "LIL MISS KEMALANGAN" and " LIL MISS TERGOLEK"
buat la baju for me. custom made. sungguh gembira jika begitu.

going back to Uitm tomorrow, my mind has blocked from designing anything at all lately. so, im just waiting for the right time for me to excell, chewah.

still in pain. saket tak saket. im still going for Panic at the Disco tomorrow!

saket tak saket. i dont give a fuck! its like, kalau dah saket, baik saket teros. heeeeeeeeee..

then its wednesday! cant wait! =))))))))))) eeeeeeeeeeeeee sukanya.

goodnight.

p.s: my fellow friends who are doin medicine. dont let like the above happen. please!

2008-08-04T02:09:00.002+08:00

kids, don't do this at home.
having your head hitting the ground for 3 times in 1 day is madness.
this is what you get when you have Giants surrounding you.
i'm in pain, oh the agony. Archikite turned out to be the only thing i never wanted it to be, feeling down as noon passed by, the fall(s) i encountered the previous day only showed its 'true colours' today.

my whole back is aching, my neck is twisting, my hips turned, well basically my whole body spinned 180 degrees. fuck! the pain is unbearable. and to add the finest cherry on top, we camped out on solid ground which had rocks all over. not helping when i lie down? does it?!!

the night before Archikite, we played beach soccer, volley ball, marco polo. which explains the twisting and turning of body!!!! ya know in Bagan Lalang, the beach when the current is off, the sea if veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy far! according to En Emb, its as far as 2 km. we tried walking in the middle of the night, OMG. if you have a phobia of 'many-legged creatures' please dont. banyak gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ANAK KETAM!!! BERJUTA JUTA JUTA JUTA LEMON!!!! shit. geli nak mampos. i was yelling at first then i runned mcm org gila. sampai satu tahap kan..terjatuh kt dalam, selut! rasa seaweed yang geli gile babi. shit fuck. dont go there when the air surut. and malam.. ketam bermaharajalela! reminds me of Christmas Island.

we won the Sand Castle competition, expected; =)
kite? hahaha, i think our kite was more of a 3 D sculpture than a real kite.
i have no photos =( i didnt bring any camera, and usually Azim is the cameraman of all time, however he failed to uplift his reputation this time. damn!

as i didnt sleep the whole night at the camp area, i did lie down, and that was it... what a mistake i did, i was feeling unconscious, pretty much 'high' and sleepy. i was not as hyper i was, i did have fun, but there were boundaries. breakfast was yucky as i dont take red bean. by noon, i was feeling dizzy. the lack of sleep, the lack of food in my body, the hot sun, i was prepared to die. untill my saviour came passing by, haha.. nah it was only Azim. he teman me to the nearest warung and i had mee hailam; sangattttttttttttttt delicious! with the cili padi jeruk lagi. OMG.

i was supposed to get a lift from Red back to shah alam, but i knew he was going back slightly late. considering my condition, i finally got a ride from Arep who shoot off earlier. in the car, with the crazy guy jokes, guy talk which i wished i didnt hear; i acted dumb, deaf and smiled,talked when i needed to only =) slept half way to shah alam.

got back home, took a quick shower and doze off till 11 pm. mcm koala tidur.
as i opened my eyes and moved my body to get out off bed, i sensed nerve 'cracking' and 'screaming!', that was when i realised the pain started kicing in REAL BAD. pig!

now i walk like a freaking ketam, senget already. i think daulat the ketam caused i killed beribu jugak lah, thanks for my feet stomping and running. tomorrow plan to Xray if i gets worse. design? i just have to meet Mr Emb on tuesday i guess. if you ask me to do design now, i only have senget structures in my head. thanks to the ketam ketam.

damn daulat ketam!

goodnight.

p/s: why'd he had to be kerek? =( im in pain, i just need some comforting.. its not that i did anything on purpose. considering my hectic schedule, not to mention, the resting period as i was in pain. =( so pityful and pathetic. =(

2008-08-02T05:00:00.003+08:00

panic's ticket is in my guided hands already ;)

and so, i asked Farez ,

"Farez, tak pergi Panic?"

"Oh, saya tidak pergi ke Panic at the disco, saya pergi Panic at the TESCO!

thats how the world is kan ?

tomorrow evening will be pushing off from Uitm to Bagan Lalang, convoying with Red and the gang. can't wait! however ive been showered with awful thoughts; how bad the public toilet is like =( i can survive the jungle, i can survive the mud, but disgusting toilets are a big NO.
damn. i havent packed a thing yet, knowing me i usually bring too many stuff; i can never scrutinize each category on what should and shouldnt bring. hence, explains the bagload. thank god we're going by car.

im still thinking on what is the Agenda tomorrow night?

rakan-rakan, come over to Archikite. i'll assure you the best company! only for HOT GIRLS, not hot guys (and so i was constantly reminded by travis barker)
not even gays? how sad. i love hanging out with gays. they're real. they're fun. they're uber gedik which allow to stimulate my passion in .... ? (insert any thing)

cant wait for this coming wednesday! <3>

saya cinta kamu ;)

good morning.

p/s: craving for Subway. blame hidayu.

2008-08-01T02:56:00.003+08:00

event of the weekend, Archikite, organised by B Sc. 05, you can read the above ad,

do drop by yeah ?

i'm going camping there on saturday! initially was supposed to stay at one of the resorts, but all was fully booked =( the guys came up with a 'great' plan; suggested that we camp out.
urghh, the last time i went for camping was in high school. without further thinking, i just jumped into the awesome plan; how often do we get to this further later kan kan kan ?

its either we'll be effin busy with design, or out of money or even some friends who are just too busy to plan this kinda stuff. so yeay! camping. (i hope the result is a 'yeay' instead of a 'ewww')
we're leaving on saturday evening! the event is actually a 2 day event, only the first day is pretty much reserved for juniors; huhuhuuuuuuuuuuuuu modul, motivation talk shit camp thingy. but we're just there for the night to enjoy the beach, bbq, sunset and...errr? guys? (travis' gonna flip if he reads this!) heheeeeeeee, nah sayang, guys as in, gays je k? haha.

ive spent my whole day today in lala land, i seem to be a little dysfunctional for the past few days, i was on a full throttle doing my design earlier this week but to no avail, i jumped right off the boat and sailing slow, perhaps a little bit too slow? i need my stimulant, come back home! =(

do come over to Bagan Lalang this weekend, call me if you need any date, ill hook you up with somebody. for real. till then. goodnight.

2008-07-31T02:42:00.002+08:00

;))))) hugs and kisses.

hearts all over the world tonight ;)

especially on the 5th of August !

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! PANIC AT THE DISCO here i come! ;))))))))

buying the tickets soon, tak sabarnya!

let's rock on! ;)

goodnight love.

2008-07-30T23:14:00.002+08:00

bad news :(
travis barker aint coming back anytime soon, 2 days late than the initial plan :(
alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, anyways, Congratulations to him for passing his final year exam ;)
nanti your graduation day i'll treat you k ;)

im currently at the studio, kononnya, working on my floor plans which are not going anywhere i think, doing my case study on membrane structure, i really think National Aquatic Centre of China in Beijing is superb, basically i think the colours and vibrant design make it really fascinating i guess?

Ayu just dropped by from home, she had Doa Selamat for her Kaklong earlier, earlier she called asking whether i want Subway or not, but i already had Nasi Kerabu, nyam ;)
"Dav, where are you?"
"I'm at the studio, mari lah,"
"Oh, i ada beli something for you!"

She passed me Mentos, Grape.
"Sweet tak i?"
Awwwwwwwwwwwww, Grape just because Travis BArker's band ;))))))))

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
tak sabar.

tomorrow design ?
ive got nothing to show!
yeayyyy!.

2008-07-27T19:27:00.002+08:00

now at home.
shortly in Uitm. =(
i wanna stay at home, i miss mama's cooking, i miss watching tv, i miss the net 24/7. i miss my bed! and bantal busuk! =D

just finished packing, i still havent organized my room yet. must be sick iniit?

i have interim crit tomorrow, its a sorta preview thingy on our progress for the current project. im working on Youth Support Centre. my inspirations? Cubes.

dont ask me why.
nak pergi Maxis, but too lazy to drive all the way to TTDi, abang promised me this evening, but yeah , janji tinggal janji. it even crossed my mind to ask travis barker to teman me, then can go for cuppiecakes...... i smiled then i was back to reality only realizing, he's thousand of miles away from me now. =(

aku kuat berangan.
hell yes.

taknak balik Uitm. =(
taknak taknak taknak!
my recent fetish.. Cappucino.

"Architects don't drive safely because they want to be noticed"

Gile Poyo. Yet, you can see it on my car. Blame the people that sold this to me yesterday at Archifest! .HOH!

goodnight.

2008-07-27T02:38:00.002+08:00

it's been a very crazy day i must say, was 4 hours late for Archifest, woke up,
and realised my phone was not working as it had blank white screen. wtf. bloody hell.

rushed to Uitm, i thot no one would realise my un-presence but yeah had many hollers asking why i wasnt there in the morning ...Erkk...

we played games, we had BBq, we hung out, the day was filled with insane stuff, we won treasure hunt 3rd place, okay lah! the night came faster than we thought it'd be, adrenaline rushing in me, i was rather scared to perform! yeah surprisingly.

and so, there were some screwings up of PA System. boring stuff. and then the show was rolling back again and to my surprise, it was already our turn. GILA FREAK OUT. lame tak perform.

we performed 3 songs, Misery Business, With You and Chantek. i led Misery Business, er....sound like hell, but yeah the show had to go on. so sedap tak sedap, i was fully content and complacent. lantak! tau punya tau. we won 3rd out of 9 performances! =D

bangga tak ? bangga lah! =D 3 sems in a row 3rd place. tiadakah kemajuan?
takpa. as long as tidak kejatuhan. thanks for those who came and support, love love love. <3
thanks for the good luck wishes, you guys gave me strength di kala i needed them the most. especially to my best girlfrens, =) however behind every story there must be a sad encounter kan? =(

i tried my best to hush those negative thoughts, the intense feelings of how much i miss that person, but to no avail and respond despite my big night? =(

its a sacrifice i have to take kan? i won 3rd and no one was there to congratulate and hug me =(
someone's too far away to think of me.

i think i need to sleep. i think to much.

goodnight, i <3>

i'm alone in space tonight.

2008-07-26T00:57:00.001+08:00

he's still far away.

but he sent me this, =D

i <3>

2008-07-25T22:48:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to Everlong – Foo Fighters, our love song, im missing him so much even though its been only a day. 3 different versions in a row in my playlist, nothing can express how I feel now. Full content yet I miss him so badly now. Yeah, im a bit dramatic considering the fact he’s only gone for 2 weeks! Haha, but yeah we’ve never parted for so long, uwaaaa =(

On the night he left, we got together and spent sometime =) I was overwhelmed with mixed feelings, he got to me by giving me a small great surprise, he knew I was looking for that movie for so long despite seeing it several times, the thing was, he had never watched the movie before we’ve been looking high and low for it, but to no avail. =(

And suddenly, he switched on his laptop, click the Play button and there it went, the movie, the most romantic movie, one of my favourite movie of all time, Love Story =D =D I was over the top, I hugged him and ….=D hehe.

Can’t wait for you to come back!

Last night was the viewing of Video Clips, Malam Muzika.God, it was hilarious watching every batch put on their masks and act out stunts that you’ll never imagine! Perhaps I’ll put my batch’s video up soon. Sinah and Nad came over to our faculty, joined us for the Malam Muzika, heheheheh the combination of Me, Ayu, Sinah and Nad is unbeatable. The merging of our voices is beyond the top. Our laughter filled the air of lecture hall, and yes, I was humiliated to have such friends. =P not, I love them lah! =D

It’s nice to have your best friend, living 3 doors away from you in college, Ayu that is =) Life in Uitm is nicer with her around, no dullness and boringness occur right about now as I have her and other 2 best friends in Uitm, Sinah and Nad. =)

Okay, I’m addicted to this one song.

Lobo – How can I tell her about you?

Kill me.

2008-07-25T02:12:00.002+08:00

he's gone.

he's gone for 2 weeks, at least.

i miss him. =(
who am i going to date with at the kedai-kedai?
who will be my baby neo's companion when kancil is gone?
who will surprise me with cupcakes?
who can i argue with about silly things?

who will cubet my cheeks?
who will call me chipmunk?

=(

balik cepat.
i love you.

2008-07-22T23:34:00.002+08:00

i just realised now we have a proper jam studio in our faculty.

how cool is that? its written on the front door, "Studio Muzik".
Cool gile eh ? I know jakon, but i guess Architecture students are closely associated with music.
why ? i think thats the only we wind down when the tide is high.

i'm currently in the studio now, with ayu red azim with me and some bunch of other frens, we're now working on the video clip for the malam muzika. its this video competition, all this while it has been a short movie, but due to the lack of time, we were asked to do a video clip instead.
and the best part? each batch is assigned with a particular genre and we got ETNIK KREATIF!
damiit gila. so since we were pretty much clueless, we decided to bend the rules and tgk la nanti.

so come to Archifest this weekend! however, do drop by for the malam muzika, which is the video clip night, its a competition, entrance only rm 1. =)

mari mari mariiiiiiiiii.
tapi travis barker takda =(

2008-07-21T00:13:00.002+08:00

had a blissful weekend. ;)

surrounded with my set of favourite people in the world, i could not ask for more.
from the convoi journey, to the dressing up, and inifinity-drop-banana-boat rides, the whole trip was wicked fun. i liked the fact we got dressed up, just to go for a dinner at a simple restaurant, turned out, the place itself was beautiful..

i still think it was a malay style architecture. not minangkabau. alah, tak sempat tgk roof.

happy birthday Sinah, i hope you had fun with us, even though not many activities were carried out as we were so carried away with the bed at the hotel, we still did manage to had fun kan? =)

now its back to class, to design, to solid ground. i just hope we didnt have to think about this, but life is life , so perhaps we will have fun again later? let's go somewhere far after this ;)

not to mention, the trip was beyond the top with travis barker there, by my side. we spent quality time together, laughed at stupid silly things, made faces and mock each other, ride on banana boats with him being the anchor man, the cold night by the beach listening to his kahon beats? (is that how you spell them sayang? kahon? cahon?!) saya suka ;)

saya cinta awak ;)

he's leaving soon. =( to London.
but not for long, 12 days.
what im gonna do ? =(

goodnight. =(

2008-07-16T00:11:00.003+08:00

Apalah kehidupan ku, stuck di studio at this hour, harassing people,

demanding chores to those below me.

i so cant wait for this freaking weekend. really. cannot wait.

site analysis is on the way, im pretty sure mr-you-know-who will be memantau-ing us to death la kan.

thank God to uitm for the one step ahead taken in preparing extra nice facilities,

which is? haha the wireless internet connection at our fac, so basically i can get in contact easily with my travis barker mostly everyday! =D

you know, when something happens unexpectedly, i mean not that tragic lah, but i mean when you dont quite plan something but when it occurs, these meaningful events can be so blissful =)

that night when we played dress up, and went for dinner at the initially-i-thought-italian-restaurant. we reached the place, i was freezing cold as i wore this short black dress and longsleeve skin tight lace top, which basically, i was properly dressed...

travis barker was whoaaa, so over the top with his fine shirt, he looked so dashingly handsome. =) saya sangat suka. sangat cair tau.

ahhahahaha.

we had wonderful dinner, haaa it was mexican restaurant tau! hahah not italian! hahahahha. we had such a beautiful night.

i <3>

2008-07-14T00:39:00.003+08:00

hectic day.
sangat gila.

im not in the mood to blog now.
i just went for shooting the whole day.
extras.

had a few lines.
wickedly funny.
got paid on the spot.
blissful =)

Travis Barker just came over, met him for a few minutes je =(
passed him muffins and brownies mama baked. =)

tired. finished with power point.
off to bed.

2008-07-12T14:23:00.002+08:00

its been a pretty easy weesy first week of class!

the first day, there was the normal boring design class, was it boring?

it was okay lah. decked in baju kurung, everyone pretty much looked as though they were in festive moods, hollering , shouting along the corridor, greetings, everyone missed each other ? i guess.

ive got 2 projects this semester, yeah REPEATED SEMESTER.
ive got a Youth Centre and Student club to design.

im bored.
bored of my life at this second.

2008-07-06T02:11:00.002+08:00

Pak Arab : This piece of wood carving is nice huh?

Me : Yeah, it is.

Pak Arab : Yeahh, its beautiful.

Me : Yeap, geometrical Islamic patterns.

Pak Arab : Wow, you know?

Me : I have to know, i learnt them.

Pak Arab : Really? You're still studying? What field?

Me : Architecture.

Pak Arab : It figures. bla bla bla bla etc. (merapu)

( by this time i was looking behind to search for my Travis Barker)

Pak Arab : So, where are you from ? (i knew he was going for this!)

Me : Around here.

Pak Arab : Wow, you're a Malaysian ? You don't look like one.
Me : What am I then ?

Pak Arab : You look Arabic.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHHA.
BLoody pick up line. You're an Arab, if you think i was Arabic why didnt you converse in me in Arab?

bozo.
That was the scene at Archidex today. was with Ayu, Red, Azim and Travis Barker.
had fun, gain knowledge, knew something i never knew, getting inspired ( i hope), made friends with strangers, and encountering Pak Arab.

After Archidex, we headed to Sungei Wang, hasinah and nadirah joined us after that. we shopped and shopped and shopped. basically i bought many stuff around K.L and PJ for the past one week. these are the things i bought (the one i can remember lah)
-Pink Laundry jumper
-Navy Blue cardigan
-2 long sleeve tshirts
-4 formal shirts (which i love sangat!)
-a pair of baby blue open toe flats

and i cant remember....er.. er.. we had dinner at Teppanyaki Sungei Wang, jalan lagi, as usual Red shopping sakan, he's a sucker for Sungei Wang, no wonder his dressing style!
everyone basically bought something except for my beloved travis barker.

Me : Asal tak beli apa apa? everyone beli except you.

Him : I'm picky.

i thought to myself, "you're not picky when it comes to choosing girls!"
me that is, a very selekeh run down girl, not to mention BISING!
hahahahahahahhahahaha.

after infinity rounds at Sg wang, we headed to PJ and lepak minum at mamak di samping shisha.
boring. penat now.

but i had REAL GREAT FUN TODAY! =D

can't wait for Tues. =D=D

i love you Travis Barker. =)

2008-07-05T01:46:00.002+08:00

its been a whopping 43 hours since i last slept.
ive not been sleeping ever since, i dont know why?
i seem to have every minute filled with nuisance, activities and nonsense ?
or perhaps, simply blissful moments with girlfriends and travis barker. =D

as i didnt sleep, after helping mama this morning i took my shower right away and headed to Ayu's house to go to Uitm together. college registration. everything settled. she stays 3 doors away from me je =)

welcome to Shah Alam Ayu! =D
Now you me sinah nad can go for lunch trips as often as possible. =)

after a tedious system of college registration we headed down to P.J and went to the saloon,
we got our hair dyed and steamed! =D

Ayu coloured her hair Chestnut while i opt for Ash Mahogany Light Brown.
people who rarely see me will think it's my original hair colour cause mcm there's nothing?
but in reality if you see me before, it is indeed a transformation of a very visible vibrant brown to a very dark brownish maroon. i like the subtlety of it. it only flourishes under the hot piping sun!

after nearly 3 hours at the saloon we were already starving, but i had to go as i already had some plans with Travis Barker. =) balik rumah, washed up, spiced up a little, got ready to see HIM! teman him to ASK to pass his photostate PAssport (jealous dia pergi London nanti =( ). then tgk his gig at K.L. it was so hot so so so hot, i chose to wear this mini maxi dress i bought recently.
sampai2 tempat tuh sejuk la pulak. urgh.. kaki beku.

bottom line , my hunny chipmunk, Grape rocked the stage big time.
you know i was singing along the song "Alone in Space".
saya sangat teruja. excited. exhilarating. adrenaline pumping. dan kaki beku.

YOU ROCKED LA! you did. you were the best rocking drummer among all the drummers.
no kidding. even after the show you had people approaching you giving compliments kannn?

thats why you're my travis barker! =D

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
everytime i watch you play the drums, you make my heart skip a beat.

goodnight, i need my effin' sleep. 43 hours is my fucking record.
tomorrow off to Archidex and Sungei Wang for shopping spree.
i know.
call me jinjang and ill be your biggest fucked up leng loi.

2008-07-04T00:19:00.004+08:00

how fascinating it is.

7.40 am : Start engine , accelarate, cross junction, traffic lights, accelerate.

7.44 am : reach Travis Barker's house. =D

how blissful is that? we can kidnap each other anytime.

and so i did this morning, i couldn't sleep and at 6 am after logging off ym, to help mama with sandwiches, hotdogs, banana choc chip muffin and seri muka,
i sms-ed him.

"Jom breakfast?"

he replied " Nak Nak!" (excited pulak)

So it only took me 4 minutes to see his super chomel tak tidur face! =D heeeeeeee.
We did our bit for charity by donating some clothes, magazines and books. dropped it off at the public bin in Seapark. we contemplated on where to eat, we both realised we wanted to eat McDonalds, ive been craving for McD's breakfast for quite sometime. and yeay! cravings satisfied. Oh Sec 14's McD has a new look =) very modern contemporary. but urghh, that's another excuse for HIM to sit at the all new open air seating to huff and puff!

after 2 hours of chitchatting and loving doving (no such word i know),
we headed back home as our eyes were becoming so sexy that we couldnt get off each other! hahahahahahahah. mata mengantuk la donkey! before that we made 2 pitstops, 2 saloons, i was comparing and surveying the price. ill be dying my hair. yes AGAIN! i already bought 2 boxes of L'oreal hair colour, was thinking of asking the saloong to colour for me then steam my hair one shot. now im experimenting with different colour! and so what i think.

Ash Mahagony Light Brown! i know i know. nama nak gempak je. warna biasa.
haha.

got back home, slept till 7 pm, im the champion i know i love sleeping.
woke up called Papa, he came over and me Papa Abang went for grocery and toiletries Shopping. i bought stuff for college! starting class this monday (ergh, excited but lazy).
After shopping, we went for dinner at Pakeeze. pakistani cuisine. my All time favourite!

balik. bored. chit chat with Mama. watched tv. bored. bored bored.

tomorrow heading to Uitm for college registration.

and perhaps watch Travis Barker in action? =)))))))))))))

Goodnight.

2008-07-03T01:20:00.003+08:00

hot hot heat.
the heat today was killing me, and yeah it killed me, and i died. i did!

now im back from the dead. feeling the warmth even its half past 1 in the morning. fuck!

nothing special happen today.
woke up, walked like a freaking zombie, you know everytime i wake up the first thing i'll do is find my 2 phones usually its either stuck somewhere in the blanket, or under the sheets, it gets so frustrating when i cant find them especially when i'm mamai. semua benda tak jadi.

mama asked me to fetch Alya from sekolah agama. i showered for a bit, (i dont think there was any use! i was sweating back again right after i put on my clothes)

at Alya's Sekolah Agama.
I realised something was horribly wrong with her face, with her expression that is, i kept to myself and wondered what actually hapenned to cause this irritating happy go lucky girl to turn sour?

Me : Alyaaa, apesal? kena marah dengan ustazah ke?

Alya : Tak lah, takda apa pun, biasa je.

Me : Oh emmm okay. (i knew she was hiding something)

reached home i demanded her to rush and do whatever she had to ASAP as she had tuition. she headed straight to the kitchen to makan , and i joined her since i havent had my lunch then.

suddenly.
out of the blue.

Alya : Alya dah tak suka Imran. (her longgggggggg time crush, kecik2 dah pandai, she's only 12)

Me : Ha? Apesal? why suddenly?

Alya : I dont know lah. Alya macam tiba-tiba tak suka dia.

Me : Takkkkkkkkkkkannnnn lah tetiba? i'm sure he must have done something.

Alya : No lah, nothing, macam dah tak suka.

Me : Dont lie.

Alya : Dia panggil Alya .."Ayam"

p/s : jackpot, no wonder the face at sekolah agama.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

enough said.

2008-07-02T01:47:00.002+08:00

right after i locked th front gate,
kept my wedges in the box, pet Mowgly my cat,
i walked into my room , (okay okay my refugee camp) i saw Alya on my bed.
in my heart 'what the fuck is my sister doing on my bed?! my berhantu bed?'

i headed straight to the kitchen and asked.

"Mama, kenapa Alya boleh sesat on my bed?!"

"oh, mama try kejut dia, tapi dia tidur mati pulak. korang whole siblings kan same genetic, tidur letak bom sebelah pun tak bangun!"

"hoh? okay, tetibe je she wants to sleep in my room?"

"Oh you know what she said? She said tilam Vina best, macam tidur atas persian cat!"

hahahahaha.OMG. adik aku memang wild imagination.
i know i know ive been telling everybody, and everyone who has slept or sit on my bed before agree with me the fact that my tilam memang berhantu!"

so now i think im not gonna sleep as usual until she wakes up tomorrow morning for school, i can't sleep without my tilam berhantu!

i just got back you see, from the so-called-fine-dinner, =P which was not that fine nor fancy but i am fully content with the fact i spent a wonderful night with my travis barker.

initially we had a few choices in hand, but him, knowing my passion for italian food, and OH ITALIAN GUYS! (OOps, lari topic), he suggested we go for italian food la kan, so we were contemplating on Pizza Uno or Itallianese or mana lagi? Picolo Mondo? HOh!

finally we settled for Itallianese as he has never tried before.
upon reaching the entrance,

Hostess : ' Table for two?' (with a fake smile, babi)
Me : ' Yes , please' (faking a smile as well but it turned out to be ikhlas)
Hostess : ' Inside?'
Me and Him: ' yeah!'
Hostess : 'Smoking or Non Smoking?'
Him : 'errr...smoking'
Hostess: 'Outside please'. (bodoh, baik tanya smoking or non smoking dulu, nih offer Inside dulu! bengong!!!!!!!!)
Him : 'Eh its okay, i think we'll go inside, baru romantik'
hahahhahahahaha. semua ketawa. malu i.

it took us a solid 15 minutes kot to decide on what to eat? i was starving at that point and before we even finish ordering, the bread starter they gave dah habis dijilat jari! we ordered Seafood Cipakndaijhedaijieja (what the fuck) or was it Seafood Capriaso? (eh tuh bukan from Pirates of the Carribean ke?) , Grilled Salmon with spinach, garlic sauce and roasted potatoes with rosemary. yes the name is so stylo you can even eat the pinggan as the taste is stylo as well. haha. we had Caesar Salad for appetizer.

the table we got was exactly next to the wall where all these italian sort of interior style could be seen clearly, tapi sakit hati, romantik punya romantik takda camera, eh No, actually i did have but no battery. SHIT! its okay, there's more dinner to come kan my travis? =)

after filling our stomach, after consuming all the food, putting weight and making an obvious balloon around my tummy area we decided to leave and walk walk lah, i know he wants to have a puff. we sat by the water fountain and talked for a bit before i suggested we go for dessert at Baskin Robbins =D whoa, memang menggemukkan diri, honestly i wasnt hungry but i mengada nak makan, no wonder all these fat in me. he had Mint Choc Chip while i took the normal pick Chocolate Cookie Crackle. Nyam!

Hasinah called and bising2 they havent seen me around for quite some time, so i ajaked him to join me, and yeah we did. before meeting them at k.jaya, we made a detour to ss7 to take something i purchased online. yes, im a e shopaholic.

lepak with them for a bit, chit chat with Sinah, Nad, Ziela, Red, i miss them! ehehe. We took off and went our seperate ways. Travis Barker and me had our 2nd guitar class again. yes, i need to brush my skill. so berkarat already. let's rock let's rock let's rock today.

this weekend Archidex anybody ? i got my express tag already. dengan bangganya.
then, shopping at Sungai Wang? gila jing jang joe. im sure Red will have the time of his life.

goodnight.

p/s : thank you for the lovely dinner my Travis Barker, i had a wonderful night, you were the cherry on top of the icing of the night (chewahhh wtf is me? i'm in love thats why). i <3>

2008-07-01T02:28:00.002+08:00

my travis barker landed a job for tonight and made some bucks.
i'm pretty sure he was rocking the stage with his tight drum beats. =)

and so i'm looking forward for tomorrow, as he asked me out for a fine dinner date. =D
our very own first fine dinner date since 2003. hell yeah.

so let's make it special.
updates tomorrow. =))))))))))))))))))))))))

p/s: i'll be smiling my way to bed now. hehehhee!

2008-06-30T17:45:00.003+08:00

i planned the perfect date today.
the one i actually wasnt quite looking forward to.
the kind of date that would make you sigh, whine and moan.

ah, not that kind of MOANing, silly. haha.
the kind of date that would cause backaches, headaches, any possible type of aches in the world.

i had a date with my room.
yes. my room needed a major makeover. okay let's change in to present tense.
my room still needs a major makeover. its been long overdue, and there are no changes at all. ive been postponing for the past 1 year! yes i am not kidding you. ive been a refugee, seeking shelter everywhere around the house, sneaking in pillows, food and attention. (haha!) from one place to another, i think ive myself to blame kot? why am i not moving my big fat ass? perhaps its too berat laaa.. alaa i dah gain weight. okay2 thats another story.

so basically, ive cleaned up all the stuff besides my wardrobe and put it into boxes, the real challenge is my clothes, wardrobe etc. its hell! there's too many clothes to deal with. sangat havoc! my wardrobe takes nearly half of my room. seriously, leaving me with less than 1/4 space to walk (after adding other furnitures). since i want to paint my room, ive to take out all the furnitures la kan ?but i need someone to help, a whole fucking day to do that. no one at home is up for that challenge, so its like macam takkan berjaya je? i was contemplating if i could just push the stuff on one side and start painting one side of the wall, then bla bla..tukar position barang to another corner and paint this side pulak..but you know what??!!!

my stuff terlampau banyak for a room that IS TOO EFFIN SMALL!!!
sigh. uni's startin next week, and ill be staying in college, macam mana? once it starts, im PRETTY SURE, my room will be left to where it is now. forever and ever.
i got to my senses and i thought I NEED A ROOM! yes. i need my space. so i did what i have to do. now i have tonnes of unwanted baju.

ive had enuff, im hungry, im gonna grab some food in the kitchen.
nasi putih with sambal ayam ala rendang OR spaghetti bolognese?
being the fatty bom bom, im gonna consume all ! haha.

VIVA LA ESPANA!

Torres, you're my hero =D

2008-06-29T16:31:00.004+08:00

hoho.
something to be proud of especially on the day i got myself into the media, our beloved Anwar Ibrahim got himself tangled again with sodomy! haha.

never expected to have a full spread on today's 29 June Sunday Star, section Sunday Metro. hehe.

got it from : http://thestar.com.my/metro/story.asp?file=/2008/6/29/sundaymetro/21568998&sec=sundaymetro

heeeeeeeeeeee got this at Star Online. hehe, the hard copy has another photo which is much bigger!!muahahah.
vain. no no, im just proud of Papa. =D

i love you Papa. =)

2008-06-29T01:24:00.003+08:00

post Urbanscapes.

i think i have a darker tan colour for my skin. id have bikini lines if i would have worn it to urbanscapes earlier today. gila sweat like nobody's biznes. i was drenched in sweat and it was so hot and humit, made it hard for me to even window shopping! the crowd was BIG. i mean it. BIG.

i had fun ;) real fun, not exactly at the event itself, more to the person i spent time with which is obviously none other than my travis barker. =)

before going to klpac, we dropped my Wondermilk for some cuppacakes. ah, im still craving! i bought 4 cupcakes. which were Strawberry dream, mint choc chip, royal vanilla, and chocolate chip. ah sedap!

looking for a parking spot at klpac was suicide, really! after endless rounds of merry go round the whole park of klpac we finally found a comel spot. hehe. i was already complaining bout the weather, thank god i opt to wear a skirt so basically i could feel the air la kan? hahaha.

bumped into many people, ash, maliq, natalya, adyla, apan, faiza, ehhh ramai la, i cant remember! we stayed for a bit. i did mention that travis barker was supposed to perform, tapi pity him and his band,Grape tak jadi due to some circumstances. perhaps next time kan ?

talking bout performance, we were chilling at the Bijour bazaar lawn where the Open Mic was situated, yes, u its open, so basically you can just dgn muka berlagak, grab the mic and start to melalak. OPEN! i suggested Grape to perform lah kan acoustic since its open to redeem kegeraman masing2 tak dapat tunjuk bakat on the stage? hehe, yeah they said okay! so tunggu tunggu tunggu, my travis barker was acting all weird, pinjam my phone, and calling Nen and Zul talking for so long. i was like ??!!? then when he got back.

me : ' what's up? you call dating ke?"

him : 'ehhhh ada lah, surprise, i tanya nen something'

me : ' apa dia yang you tanya la?'

him : ' tunggu lah, nanti you will know'

me : ' GEDIK!'

i was thinkin and focusing so hard i could guess anything at all so i just waited.
then... it started to rain. lorh, spoil mood only. mmg la hot but dont la rain. it rained for half and hour. then he suddenly blurted out,

him : ' i actually nak perform a song for you tadi at the Open mic'

me : ' ha?! you nak main apa? takda drums pun?'

him : ' heyyy! ingat i cannot play guitars ke? HOH!'

me : 'what song la?' (this time around my head was spinning 360 over and over trying to guess what song, i was as though playing guessing game with my other half of the body.

him : 'haaaaaaaa nanti nanti tunggu, in the car i tell.'

sedih. cause it was raining, and tak dapat la open mic. =( in the car i asked him. what song? he asked me to call Nen.

me : 'nen, tadi lagu apa?'

nen : ' Ingin bersua' (MY DAD'S SONG?!!!!!!)

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH . i was laughing. My Sayang, you're so comel, you're so adorable, you're so brave to humiliate yourself to sing my dad's song in front of hundreds and hundreds of people?!

so he called nen earlier just to check the song back again. apparently he learnt the song this morning and he said as though he was destined to perform it after seeing the Open Mic session! chhehhh..tak jadi pon. thanks to the hujan! hahahahahhaahhahaha..

you're so uber gedik. i love you. =D

after everything we headed to p.j, he dropped by his house to get something, my oh my he got out with his guitar kapok and i was surprised la kan. so i knew he was going to show off his skills playing my dad's song. =)

we hung out at kj park since we couldnt think of any possible port to lepak and play the guitar peacefully. we chose the main porch of the pavilion. duduk tengah2 main guitar. i recorded him playing. nanti i rajin i upload.

he played
ingin bersua, imogen heap, james morisson, bright eyes dan banyak lagi! yeay.

i had fun, playing the guitar with him at the park, i had fun walking with him in the hot sun and still holding my hands even though my palms were sweaty, i had fun walking in the rain romantically across the klpac, i had fun makan2 sampai gemuk with you at ikea, i had fun just simply taking gibberish in the car, .....i hated it when it was time to say goodbye.. but i loved it when you kissed and hugged me goodnight =D

GOODNIGHT <3.

2008-06-28T05:39:00.001+08:00

i never knew you had the ability to

~~poke a HOLE IN MY HEART.~~

2008-06-27T02:00:00.003+08:00

haha.
i surf the net too much. a little bit too much.

i came across this.
very funny yet true. these quotes are real (that was what been stated)

ARCHITECTURE PRESENTATION CRITS YOU NEVER WANT TO ENCOUNTER!

“Why are you here? Don’t come back next semester.”

“Here’s a quarter. go call your mom and tell her you’re not going to be an architect.”

Your design is like masturbation, you want to know why? That is because only you yourself enjoyed and like it.

What is that boxy thing (model)? A coffin?

Your design sucks!

Your design is very tasteful… … for the tasteless.

“Is this a … structural… glob of glue?”

“When I went to school, at a different school than this one, there were students who would present projects like this one.And they would fail.”

“Your project looks like something that’s been through a trash compactor”

“This space that you’ve designed is the type place where beggars and dogs go to die”

“Are you in interior design?”

“Why are you studying architecture if you’re producing things like that?”

“Hey, everyone, gather round this project, come in close…because this is a great example for everyone of exactly what NOT to do..”

“This drawing isn’t worth the paper it is printed on.”

“This (model) is great…..just don’t let your dog play with it next time.”

“The program you invented was meant solely for your architectural masturbation……”

If you build this and after 10000 years the aliens see it, they would understand why humans extinguish

“Have you ever considered a career in accounting?”

“oh, so it’s like some kind of orgy pit!”

“So your parents are pay $20000 a year for this.”

“Your theory is bullshit. You don’t need that”

Prof pointing to part of a model, “Did you chew this?"

"You don’t care about this project, do you? So I won’t say anything about it”

“You have good sense of humor but architects don’t…”

“Anyone got any matches… so I can burn this”

“Architecture? I think you should just go straight to becoming a demolition man because you just created a mess”

“My dog would not even live in this”

“I like where u put that balcony, looks like a good place to jump from after setting eyes on this horrible building”

“Do u draw with you mothers eyeliner?”

“Were you on drugs when you did this (model)?”

“Where did you shove your colour pencils when you draw that”?

This girl presented her project, and at the end of it the tutor asks her how long she spent on it, she explains that she spent all night and worked really hard on it… He tells her that she’s lying because she’s wearing make-up, and if you have time to do your make-up, you have time to work more on a project… He then proceeded to fail her

Tutor - “Can i use your model as an example for the other first years?”
Student - “Yeah of course you can!”
Tutor - “Don’t get excited, i want to use it as an example of what not to do”
Student - “Oh…”

A Girl brought in a model she had finished with plaster. When she entered the room, students and crits thought it was a cake and started singing happy birthday. Needless to say she was devastated.

hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

believe me, ive been 'shot' in the face with several crits as above. (errk!)
ive gotta do well next sem! yeah i will. insyallah.

2008-06-26T23:40:00.002+08:00

=D Azim passed this over thru msn last night. so sweet. thanks Azim =)

its a montage of our photos. (me, ayu, hasinah, nadirah, red and azim) =D

i did nothing beneficial today at home as usual. woke up at 4pm, watched desperate housewives, went to Amcorp. bored. upon going back, i lapar then i went to Subway, asked my Travis Barker to teman me. =D thank you hunny!

anyone going to KLPac this weekend? Urbanscapes' happening. my travis barker will be in action. yeay! If Slipknot has maggots, Hujan has raingers, (ewww) Komplot has Komplotan(?!) ...

you'll have your GRAPIST! meeeee! =D

hehe. thank you for temaning me to Subway. heeeeeeeee. senang nya rumah kekasih only se batu thrown away. haha.

2008-06-26T00:01:00.003+08:00

slept at 7 am woke up at 10 am, i had only 3 hours of sleep. was it even considered a sleep?
HOH.

fetched my Travis Barker, headed to Uitm Shah Alam to send my college appeal later. the makcik said

"nih kalau ada tempat je baru saya boleh offer ye?"

alamak, i thought. i just hope i dapat. im sure Papa Mama wont let me stay outside. and to commute everyday 40 km is suicide after the petrol hike. babi la Pak Lah.

Hakim mamak was calling me from far, the ever so sedap fried chicken and the chutney that i suka sangat, i realised i was craving for it so badly than i thought id be. so i convinced him to makan there! hehe.

we then headed back to P.J to meet iqa, safia, haiz,firdaus,liyana and natalya who just got back from Uk for the holidays! suddenly i received a call from Papa who asked me to rush to the Vice Chansellor's office and send in another copy of my appeal later to the secretary. apa lagi, in the middle of the highway, we were so close into missing the last exit, he slammed to the left and yeay! berjaya. i tried calling the secretary but cudnt get thru, got there, and had to take a special pass and naik lift mcm james bond surrounded with workers there. i accomplished the mission.

headed to pj dengan kepala berat tak tido, jumpa rakan2. how i miss them so much. hung out for bit. and sent my travis barker back as he had practise.

balik. ZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZzzzzzzzzZZz from 3 pm till 8 pm! best!

i feel complete.
and fully content.

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-06-24T16:52:00.002+08:00

*currently playing Emi Fujita - wishes*

my first jakon experience at GSC Signature cinemas. sgt jakon. okay even my Travis Barker was a jakon okay ? at GSC Signature only Premier Hall and Gold Class je ada. obviously, we didnt take the GOld Class, back then few years ago i once told my self nanti i got money i wanna try la ...it was rm 40. now i checked its rm 60! tunggu kaya lagi kot?

premier hall has all twin seats, comfortable ones you can even recline your seat and has a mini table attached to ur seat. and one thing i was amazed that you can order your food at the cafes outside and they will send it to u in the cinema! i know i know JAKON i am.

we watched THE HAPPENING. someone warned me, its either you will really like the movie or really think its a crappy movie. if you are a m. night syhamalan (however u spell it) fan, i think u will defintely like the movie. yeah i enjoyed the movie. best! i just think you have to conclude the conclusion at the end of the movie.

during the movie we ate and ate. . chicago beef hotdogs. baked potato skins. salty popcorn. makannn!!!!!!!

after movie we jalan for a bit. then headed to hartamas square and had pizza. hahah gila!
then ronda here and there and it was time to go back. sedih :( we bid goodbyes. kiss kiss hug hug.

now im missing my travis barker again!
sigh.

i talk too much i know.

lets go for URBANSCAPES this weekend!

2008-06-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

*currently listening to Mew - Am i wry now*

HAPPY 26TH BIRTHDAY DARWEEN!

YOU'RE OLD, SO ACT LIKE ONE OLD MAN.

i am definitely bloated like Elvis, initially i could blame my bloatness to my period, but now its indisputable the blame is on me and my food lust.

we had Abang's birthday dinner at Victoria Station, its not an everyday event where both Papa and Mama go out with us together, ya lah, some people perhaps find it awkward just because they're both divorced with new spouses, but im glad my family is too dysfunctional to ACT NORMAL like everyone else. hahahaha.

we had Fresh Oysters for appetizer, ooooh yummy, then mushroom soup, Papa being the orang tua took the baked onion soup. hohoho . while mama had ceasar salad. for main course all of us as usual the ever so boring steak lah kan. mama and papa again, konon jaga makan since dah tua took the grilled fish. hehe. i wanted to order the Lobster Thermidor, i tried once back then it was lovely but the price was not worth the size lah, it was so teeny weeny im sure my stomach takkan penuh with that size and how much tah the price, hence i ordered Sirloin steak.

at the end, wow, one happy girl i was. one happy FAT girl.

Alya, my sister: "Kakak, apasal dekat steak semua orang ada Well Done nye stick? did i do anything right ke?"

Me: "Ha? Oh, that shows how your steak is been cooked, Raw ke, Medium ke or Well done means fully cooked lah"

Alya: "Oh la yeke, Alya ingat apa. Alya rasa patot bg the Well Done Stick nih dekat Chef sebab dia dah masak best, dia ptut dapat (with gestures-thumbs up) ...WELL DONE CHEF!"

it was cute, and dumb. the whole table laughed.
hahahahhahaha.

i have such sister.
it runs in the blood. dammit.

tomorrow going to meet my Travis Barker ! seronoknya =)

lalalalalalalalalalalalalala..........~

2008-06-20T22:50:00.003+08:00

as crazy as it sounds, i can't wait for the sem to commences.
im bored at home, to death, im dysfunctional during holidays and i cant wait to get myself busy again, i know i know, im going to get all fucked up with the design demands and all, but after the failure i guess i really have to PULL UP MY SOCKS and turn over a new leaf.

really? really.

woke up today at 4, another achievement of the day. took my bath, rushed for Zuhur and had lunch. i had sambal udang and ikan bilis goreng with tempe and cili padi. watched t.v, i had nothing else better to do but to spend my quality time lipat baju sambil menonton The Bodyguard. Yes, countless times.

by 630, i carried my lazy bum a for quick shower and got ready to go out with Mama, her childhood friend is migrating to Brisbane, so mama decided to treat her dinner, plus she will be renting out our service suite at Amcorp Mall for a week before leaving.

while waiting for Aunty Noni to arrive, us girls spent our time at Elianto kiosk, mama got herself a refill eyeliner that she ran out long time ago and i kecek her to get me this lipgloss. one happy girl , i was. =) Aunty Noni arrive we did some window shopping merepek2 around there, and went for dinner at Uncle Chilli's. mama ordered Spicy Fish fillet rice, Aunty - ginger chicken yee mee, while i ordered beef fried kuey teow. yummy. and then we ordered the famous and sedap, glass noodle soup. =)

im back home now. im bored, supposedly at Izyan's surprise bbq party =( but i couldt make it. sedih gila. anyways,

HAPPY 21 ST BIRTHDAY IZYANNNN!

i'm missing my darling Travis Barker, he's at port dickson with his family. i miss him. i miss him i miss him i miss him. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! balik cepat. =(

2008-06-20T02:13:00.003+08:00

i feel so overwhelmed! =D

just minutes ago, my precious hubby messaged me to check my side mirror. (hehe, remember my mission? it has been reenacted by him)

adrenaline rush all over me, butterflies playing trumpets, i was so curious! hehe, as i walked to the car, anxiously i looked around as his sms said to be aware of a big dog. (ke HE TIPU ME?!) I bet i looked like a fool if anyone who have taken a shot of me, i look so silly. hahaha.

so then, as i approached the side mirror, i was watching my step so i wouldnt jatuh longkang, i saw this familiar bright yellow bag, aha! forever 21!

muka dgn bersinar sinar, i just thought ape lah kan? i grabbed the plastic bag and headed straight to the room and opened the bag... jeng jeng jeng...

this beautiful black lacey top! eeeeeeeeeee sukanyaaaaa. i love it soo much, i tried it on right away! its simple, yet elegant. it fits me perfectly. and the best part, it covers my skin but yet its subtlety SEXY!! hehe.

thank hunny bunny sugar pie. i like and love the fact that you take time to think what to get me, to scrutinize the facts and points of me. you did a great choice. heheheheh suka suka suka.

3 different things/elements that i love combined together!

clothes + LACE + forever 21 = happynesssssssssssssssssss =D =D

thank you again my TRAVIS BARKER!
i lololololoveee you.

2008-06-20T01:09:00.002+08:00

yes, so childish.
why issit that everytime i come across his photos, or even his name, or even a thought of this guy, i feel this rage, hatred in me? MENYAMPAH, the perfect word in malay.

stop causing troubles, you've done enough, stop stalking me, stop getting to know about my life, you were once part of it, but then you lost it. it's rather tormenting and fucked up. i dont know why tapi i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate it so much.

konon saying your sms didnt mean any harm, but as friends je. hell with it, if it was meant as FRIENDS, .. friends wont talk about past relationships. dumbass. apa lagi you wanna ruin my life? ha? what else?

the previous case when HE slammed you not to bother me, you said "ehhhhhhhhhhh kau tanya awek kau dulu, kalau dia takda message aku, takda la pulak aku kacau"

fucker. sekarang apehal ? ada aku kacau kau ke? pundek ayam la kau. kau kacau aku lagi kan? there's no fucking need to give me 10 sms-es of advice if you're such a fucker face yourself. i just hope my birthday wish to you yesterday make you realise that you're 21 for fuck sake and stop acting like a fucking child.

you love reading my blog, i know, but you misintepret a lot dude, this is me writing, i dont expect people to understand my shit, i dont write for people, therefore, if you read something, digest those facts first before come to a conclusion donkey.
i did a mistake, a big one, you tried fucking it up big time, you thought id crumble and die, you thought I WILL BREAK UP WITH HIM. yes you did, so you gave me all those advices? fucker fucker fucker fucker fucker. FUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU.

GET A LIFE, GET LAID. YOU DESERVE SOMEONE ELSE.

2008-06-18T02:45:00.003+08:00

good luck cupcakes, (shaliastreats.blogspot.com), sedap and lawa!!

my Travis Barker in action =)

His Groupies.

2008-06-17T19:49:00.002+08:00

CONGRATS TO AHMAD AIZAD MOHAMED FAUZI!

you've done well in your final, so so well, im so proud of you. YOU ROCKED THE STAGE BIG TIME SAYANG! haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa so bangga okay.

but too bad, your camera buat hal, or perhaps it was just me who was buta it. *malu* , alah, we both buta IT baru romantik right? =D

im still waiting for the video form you tau!! mintak ASK cepat2 so i can drool over you over and over again. heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =D

he played 5 songs, one with timpani, one marima, one funkish song, 2 songs he composed. damn, he was so hot on stage even though at a glance he looked like pengkid. heee , blame the make up. dont worry, you're still hot as Travis Barker. =)

we had dinner at William. we hung out and had cupcakes, i ordered especially for him. i still have yet to receive the photos from him, so later ill show you guys!

i still wanna sit down and stare and smile. jom smile and drool over my travis barker.

2008-06-16T02:22:00.002+08:00

*The Killers - Smile like you mean it*

i regret for forgetting to get the journalist's email. i think the photo shoot was beautiful. its not everyday you get a family potrait right?

we took photos on the bench, on the car!! i had to drape myself on the car, the journalist even used the term "MOTOSPORT CHICK" huh? the ones dressed up, okay chop, i dont think they're considered as dressing up if they only wear to cover their private parts right?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA. damn.
so basically, the photoshoot turned out well, even though at the end of the shoot i was drenched in sweat. baru nampak real in sports gear. heheh.

had lunch at Raju's with papa. some sort of Father's Day luncheon. very laidback eh ? i like. i took one whole fish of ikan bawal. ah sedap. i wanted crab, but it was finished. =( but whatever it is, i enjoyed the meal very very very much!

look out for Sunday Star, this week? next week? im not sure myself. you'll see how stupid i look like multiposing at different scenes. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh malunyaaaaaaaaaaa!

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY PAPA!

I LOVE YOU =)

2008-06-15T03:32:00.003+08:00

the abang at the spa was so silly and gatal.

i hated the situation but i think i managed it well.

suddenly he told us ada 2 slot je padahal there were 4 of us.

we did reservations didnt we?

bloody people.

so we rescheduled.

anyways, we went for dinner after that.

went to iThai! at millenium square sec 14, p.jaya. i usually go to Piccadilly next to it, the place is fine, nice, you have plenty of choices and the taste is not bad.

ive heard of iThai before, from friends, reviews from facebook and all, then Nadirah suggested we go there, so we did..whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

sangat sedap okay. i mean okay to my tastebud kot? but all of us were satisfied.

the ever so famous Tomyam got my ass kicked sebab it was delicious and mouth watering went the waiter sent it to our table. the sotong and udang ahhhhhhh so perfect!

for my main dish i order this thingy called Pad Gropow? huh ? its this dish with chilli, basil and all, so i chose beef. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh sedap! you guys should go there.

okay im still craving. and im definitely goin there again. go tau!

p/s: my previous entry; Pengkid Jepun ? Ayu was soooooooooo exxagerating. it was NOT BAD AT ALL. she even looked cute. gedik punya perempuan.